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I regret that I am sleeping with a married man.

I am a complete hypocrite. I kicked out my own husband of ten years, just three months ago. For cheating.

Then a month later, I bumped into an old friend in the supermarket. This is a guy I’ve known since I was a child, and we always liked each other, but never got it together. I always bump into him in the supermarket, as I am a manager there, and we always say hello, and we are also friends on Facebook. After this particular time, I received an inbox message from him, and we got chatting. By the end of the evening, we had swapped numbers, and have spoken every day since. It’s been 7 weeks.

We’ve been out together, and I have slept with him. He doesn’t wear his wedding ring, and has even met my mother when he came to pick me up to take me to work one morning, whilst his wife was at work, and had a coffee with us before we set off. He has told me he has fallen in love with me, and has admitted he is deliberately not sleeping with his wife in the hope she will end it with him because he cannot. He feels tied to her and the marriage. They have only been married for two years, and her family gave them thousands towards their dream wedding.

There have been numerous occasions when I have said I need to walk away from the situation, but then he will send me messages telling me he loves me and can’t be without me, and that he doesn’t want me to turn my back on him.

People at work have noticed him and asked who he is, as he will come and see me at work, and will hug me on the shop floor, and he says he doesn’t care who sees. He posts links to songs on Facebook, and often comments on my posts. People at work have asked who he is, as body language gives a lot away. I told one of my staff he is a friend who is married, and she said it doesn’t look like he will be for much longer with the way he looks at me.

He is currently on holiday with his wife, and has sent me numerous texts every day, telling me how much he loves me and how much he is missing me, and has said he will be straight in to see me at work as soon as he gets back from his holiday.

All my friends who I have confided in have said the same thing, he may be saying he can’t leave his wife, but his actions are saying otherwise. They don’t seem to think it will be long before their relationship is over.

I know I am a terrible person, and I hate what I am doing, yet I can’t imagine my life without him anymore. It isn’t just about sex. We have only slept together twice, yet we’ve seen each other roughly 2-3 times a week before he went on holiday.

I know I should walk away, but every time I try, I backtrack.

Submitted by: A Terrible Woman

i regret the lies i have told and how i have let people walk all over me. Each individual person is beautiful and we make mistakes, just like every other human being. 

i regret not being myself and i ask for the strength to find people who love and want me please god

Submitted by: Claire

I regret ever meeting my ex. He manipulated me, he lied to me, he called me horrible names, he tore down my self esteem, he made me think every thing was my fault, he made up stories so that I’d feel bad for him, he threatened me when I tried to escape, he blamed me for his mistakes. When I tried to move on, he made even more mistakes and tried to make me feel bad for them, and tried to manipulate me out of my moving on. He blamed me for his stupid decisions. I even got yelled at for liking a celebrity! He was all too possessive and mean and put me though hell every single day of my life. I so deeply regret not ignoring his threats of suicide and leaving his ass around month 5.

Submitted by: Sailor

I regret caring what others thought of me. I regret not standing up for myself. I regret I went to see my friend that day and met you on the way. Honestly I just wish I was supersmart and could see through people’s lies. I regret being so naive and gullible. I regret thinking people were as honest as me. I regret answering your call. I regret deciding to come hang out. I don’t regret telling you no even though you decided to take it from me anyways. I regret I didn’t tell anyone until it had festered into a sickness inside of me. I regret every second that I wasted thinking it was somehow my fault.

Submitted by: Anonymous

I regret having an argument with my boyfriend the night before he killed himself. I regret the things I said. I regret that I was in a bad head space when we met. Life could have been so different. In our short time together, it became intense so quickly. His smile could light up a room. His kindness had no limits. The sincerity he extended to everyone was like no one else I have met. He was an amazing man. The world lost a good one when he died. I will miss him every day.

Submitted by: Belinda

I regret being shy.

Submitted by: No one

i regret letting j meet my baby when he was 3 months old when i knew he was never gonna be there for him or me. i finally realized he was just using me when our baby boy turned 2 and haven’t been with him since because i wasn’t gonna play house when i knew in my heart this man had no plans to be a family. yea our relationship was pretty much nothing from the start. but he became an awesome father. and i loved him even more for that. and all of a sudden he finds a new girlfriend and emails me to tell me he wants nothing to do with our son and not to contact him ever again. this man has been there from 3 months and my son is 6 now and he just threw him away. how can someone just do something like that with no thought of how this boy is going to grow up knowing his dad said leave me alone with no good reason just an email saying he was done? i just cant get over that part. i knew he was a coward in the beginning but to do it to his son, his own flesh and blood, someone who looks up to him. breaks my heart because my son talks about all the memories they shared summers, birthdays, Christmas and now nothing ever again with no explanation….saddens me everyday. i regret letting him into his life. and i hope to god it wont affect his life as he grows to be a man. it would be so easy to blame the woman he is with now but its not her fault… i dont think someone could make a man or woman choose to never see there kid again unless they wanted it themselves. play daddy for 6 years and then decide u don’t want to be his father anymore… HOW HEARTLESS CAN U BE ?

Submitted by: Susie Q

I regret I ever married my husband. I regret I was not able to see from the beginning what type of individual he was. I regret staying as long as I did with him. I regret putting up with the verbal and emotional abuse he vocalized on a daily basis. I regret allowing him to make me feel like I was old and ugly. I regret allowing him to make me feel worthless. I regret thinking I could make him into what I wanted. I regret wasting 4 years of my life and coming out of this marriage with less than what I went in with. I totally regret this part of my life.

Submitted by: Bee

I regret getting married! It’s been 17 years, but I’ve always known. I regret working so hard in this marriage, moving around so many times, I regret that I wanted this to work, even though I do not love you, I regret that I let you mistreat me, and I regret having our children (I do love my children with all my heart), but you forced me into 2 pregnancies while psycologically and verbally abusing me. I allowed it because I was afraid. I regret, that by marrying you, I robbed us both from a different life, light years away from the one we are stuck in. I’m not afraid of you anymore! I will get out!!

Submitted by: ENM

I regret letting you walk all over me. I regret ever kissing you at that party freshman year because I really liked you. I hate how you just think you can leave me then, when you need me, think you can just pick it back up again. I regret opening up and letting down my guard with you. I regret spending spring break thinking of you and waiting for you to text when I should have been having the time of my life. I regret believing you when you talked about the future and promised you would never hurt me. You are a liar and a jerk, just like your friends. I don’t know why I ever even thought it would work in the first place. I regret missing you. I regret falling for you. I regret lying to my mom and then making out with you in my car for 3 hours. I regret everything about you and hope that you never try to come back to me again!

Submitted by: KS

I regret that after all these months I still find myself thinking about you and missing you. We had talked of marriage. We told each other how lucky we were to find one another in this crazy world. The chemistry we had on every level was amazing. And I took it for granted that when you said you’d love me forever you meant it. You ended it and I was hurt and angry and sad. Months later I regret that even though I feel ‘over’ it I am constantly worried I’ll never be over you the way I should be. I regret that maybe I’ll never find the same connection with a new guy I had with you again. I’ve dated other guys since. I’ve slept with other guys since. But all of it leaves me feeling more empty than anything because they aren’t you and I don’t feel the way I did when I was with you. I regret that I might’ve just let you ruin other guys for me.

Submitted by: Kelsey

I have recently learned the meaning of love and compassion. It means putting who you care about most first and always backing that person up regardless of any situation. Sadly I have been living very selfishly all my life, always putting myself before others and thinking about only myself. And then I met her. And she loved me unconditionally. She put me first over anybody from the moment we met. She cared about me unconditionally from the moment we met. She gave me her whole heart, body and soul. She put everything she had into this love she had for me because she truly loved me and she knew what it meant to be in love and she wasn’t afraid to show it. From the very beginning I loved her with all my heart I just didn’t know how to show it like she did because I am selfish. And now because of my selfishness there is a hole in my heart that could never be filled by anything but her love. For there is no other girl in the world that could make me feel the way I do. I could never feel the same burning love I have for her. But because of me she has lost faith in love. I successfully pushed away my life; that’s what she was, still is. She was my past my present and my future. I want to apologize for my selfish actions. I’m sorry I never loved you the way I should and I’m sorry I didn’t show you I cared. You have shown me what it means to be selfless and to love someone with your whole heart. And I will always love you now and forever with my whole heart until my last breath. I only wish I could show you that my love for you is real and that I too am capable of this whole hearted love. I want to bring your faith in love back. I’m sorry, Shelby.

Submitted by:  Airkwon

I don’t even know where to begin with my situation. But I recently have been having sex with my neighbor, who’s married. It all started about month ago when he came to me out in the parking lot. At first it was just kissing, the next day he told me it can’t happen again. A few days later, he changes his mind and wants to get together again. We kiss, he changes his mind once again. After the first time we had sex, he changes his mind again! It happened again and once more after that. He would tell me that he couldn’t do it because of he was afraid he’d get caught and lose his children. Last week was the last time we had sex and the next day he told me he couldn’t anymore because of a horrible dream he had that night about getting caught sleeping with me.It’s none of my business to explain what goes on in his household, but him and his wife are on bad terms and they always have been. They have been married for three years and got married only because she got pregnant. And just last night, it got extremely physical between them. He showed me the marks.He went out to the bar and came home drunk and wanted to have sex then and I said no because of the condition he was in.A huge part of me feels so bad for him because of how his wife treats him, and I know he treats her bad too. He asked me if he was a good father and he is. I truly care about this guy, not any more than a friend though. I could never date him and I know he would NEVER leave his wife, especially not any time soon, and especially not for me.All he wants is someone who cares for him and shows affection for him.I’m not writing this blog submission for opinions or advice, I’m just writing this because there’s nowhere else to write and nobody to talk to.Submitted by: ellie

I regret my life, everything I have done in it has been to please others. I regret falling in love with girls who never really loved me back. I regret not trying hard in school so i could have a better life despite everyone telling me i am smart. I regret joining the military, i would have been better being ignorant to all the a-holes out there. I regret not helping all the people I passed by even though I am more than willing to help them but too scared of how others will see me. I regret buying this damn cat for her and then her leaving it with me. I regret my life again, if I could do it over it would be different. I really truly regret lying to everyone. I am not alright, I am not happy, nothing is ok. I regret the most that I will get over it and move on.

Submitted by: zepp

I regret not realizing this sooner. I regret how I let you treat me the way you did. You said you treated me with the most respect and kindness but when I look back you mainly ignored me or left me alone to listen to the silence. And when you did speak to me, I ended up feeling terrible. You also said I was like your “best friend.” How can I believe that when you would constantly tell that other person your thoughts but never me? I do not regret giving you the chance to change your actions and attitude toward me. The choice was yours and you already knew that I was not going to give in to you this time. You let your pride outweigh your personal feelings toward me and for that I am glad you showed me who you really are.

The last thing I regret is that I let you have everything and everyone I cared for.

Submitted by:  J

I regret having ignored my feelings and let you be a part of my life. I regret to have let you be the first man in my life when in fact you didn’t love me the way I loved you. I regret not having let you go when the wound was inflicted… MOST OF ALL I regret not having been brave enough and sincere enough to myself to give myself the time to heal… I regret jumping into a relationship to someone too good to be hurt… now I’m here pretending that everything is fine when it is not…. People might call me a coward or unfair to this great man I now call my husband, for not letting him know or leaving him, but I can assure that you are not in my position so you shouldn’t judge. I moved to a different country with him and I’m terrified to come back to my country as a divorced woman without relevant work experience (due to my moving), no money, no house (I don’t want to go back to my mom’s place), coming back so lost, and with everyone asking how could I have left the perfect man…the “perfect” life behind….

Submitted by: Yom

I regret having an affair with your husband last year. I regret how much pain I put you and your family through.

I regret how much I have dishonored myself.

I regret being stalked by you. I regret that you won’t let me go so I can forgive myself. I regret that I feel the need to try and apologize to you even though I know deep in your heart you really just want me dead.

I regret that you feel and act so angry and bitter and ugly.

I regret to learn that you married such a man who refuses to show you any respect. I regret the fact that I had learned how much your husband has actually cheated on you during the twenty something years of your marriage, and that is why you go so far with your distrust against him. I regret to learn that you have to put on a mask and an act so outsiders would believe you and your family is truly happy and honest and complete.

I regret that you won’t forgive me.

I regret that I can’t forgive myself.

So, I will not only work on forgiving myself… I am going to work on forgiving you, and praying that you will find true peace, true solace, and true love and respect.

Submitted by:  The Girl You Won’t Stop Stalking

Mom I am sorry that my dad beated you, and dear sister I am sorry that he beated you too. I had no idea how he really was, until I found out the horrible truth. I am Sorry for not being able to help you when you most needed me. I had my own problems but now I see that they are nothing compared to your own. I want to apologize to God, I’m sorry that I had my doubts in you and that at one point I wanted to change my religion to satanism. I have realised my mistake and I am very very sorry about it. I hope you can forgive me. I have done an awful lot of mistakes in my life and I am only 15 years old. I have hurt people and animals. At one chapter of my life I even killed a kitten. Dear kitten I am so so so sorry I don’t know what you did to deserve what I did to you but I want you to know how deeply sorry I am for my actions. There’s a whole lot other things I am sorry about which I hope I can get forgiveness for, but if I don’t then let it be. I am sorry for everything…

Submitted by: steffy

I regret that I like you, Kyle. I hate that I might even love you. You’re just so amazing at everything and I was helpless against your charm. But you have her and I understand. You’ll always love her and be with her, never me. I hate that love exists because it makes me miserable. When love’s good is great and when its bad its terrible. I hate to say I don’t know if that’s true because I’ve never had anything good. I’m sorry I like you and I’m sorry that you probably don’t like me.

Submitted by: Nicole

I am sure I will post here often, I have many, many regrets. I regret the burden of generations of mental illness and painful addiction issues that are rampant, unforgiving and non-discriminate in my genetic composition. I know that it is not my fault, nor is it my Mother or Father’s fault, etc and so on. I wish my family and I could catch a break and that our lives were not so complicated. I feel alone, all by myself. I regret that SOME people are very quick to judge, and are ignorant in regards to my unique and extremely complex personal life and family situation.

Submitted by: mya

I regret not being able to be the mom you deserve and not being strong enough to stick out my life on earth.  I regret not being a stronger role model for you.  I regret choosing a man that walked out on both of us before you were born.  I regret not being strong enough to see you graduate from high school.  I regret wishing and praying for death everyday instead of spending time with you.  I regret leaving you here on earth alone to fend for yourself.  You are beautiful both inside and out and I love you my beautiful teenage daughter.

Submitted by: exhausted and burned out

I regret the way we met. I wish it could have been different. The whole damn thing. I regret letting my paranoia get the better of me and make me think things about you that weren’t true. I regret ALL of the mean things I ever said to you. I regret my complete lack of ability to fully express to you how much I loved you. For god sakes it’s been around 10 years since I’ve seen you and I’m posting this. I regret letting others tell me who you were when I knew who you were in your heart. Now we’re separated by 3000 miles and have our own lives and it’s probably way too late. I regret that I emailed you a while back and got your hopes up that I might call you but couldn’t. I knew if I did I would want to rekindle what we use to have. But we’re so far away now it just couldn’t work. You should know that you’re my one true love, you always will be. I regret that if I ever do find someone else to love it won’t be the same as with you and that won’t be fair to them. Regret sucks. I don’t regret the memories of you though, I cherish them. Maybe one day things can change.

Submitted by: C

I regret hurting all of you. In the past I have hurt so many people. I was a monster, taking the innocence of so many young ladies. I got what I deserved. Your Life was to be full of happiness. I regret not allowing them to put a bullet in my brain.

Submitted by: scum

IM SORRY I WANTED TO BE YOUR FRIEND, IM SORRY I LET YOU ABUSE ME, IM SORRY I TOOK EVERY HIT AND FELL OVER AND OVER AGAIN, IM SORRY I GOT UP AND PUT ON THAT PLASTIC SMILE EVERY TIME, IM SORRY YOU DIDNT CARE ABOUT ME, IM SORRY I DIDNT RELIZE THAT, IM SORRY YOU LET ME GET HURT, IM SORRY I LOVE YOU, IM SORRY YOU DONT.

Submitted by: Sad and sorry

I regret getting married. I regret moving here. I regret allowing myself to get this far. I regret trying so hard. I regret not allowing myself a reasonable way out.

Submitted by: Divc to be