September 15, 2006
I wished I’d punched a few people in the nose…
I wish I hadn’t needed to please other people so damned much. Women do this, when we shouldn’t or not as a hard rule…I’ve given away too much of my time to the wrong sorts, whether in daily transactions or in love, waiting for a reward that just wouldn’t come. Now I wish (not always but here and there) that I’d known better — that I’d held myself back some, not given everything away with such UNselective generosity, with such misplaced hope for what? Miracles in each of us? For something I thought only I could see or win from someone? I wish I had saved more of me for me, for the miracles fomenting right here. The fact is I wish I’d punched few people straight in the nose. Without apology.
I am ready to do so now (selectively), and it feels delicious and right.
I’m no one’s corner to shit in and to whoever reads this, boy, man, or dog, girl, woman, or little fool: you shouldn’t be either.
Submitted by: Little Miss Sunshine
At 3:47 am on May 19, 2007, natasha commented:
you go girl!