April 6, 2007
I would give you your own safe world….
To my autistic twin boys, I’m so sorry that I wasn’t stronger but I did the best I could do… and still it isn’t enough. I always feel that I could have tried harder and pushed you more during that period of time that I was grieving. Now that critical time is lost and I’m ashamed. When I realized all that you would go through in life and all the help you would need, it felt that I could only put one foot in front of the other and make it through the day. I’m on my emotional feet now, but the poverty factor is overwhelming. We could be so much better off if only there was more money to get you services. I now understand what it means to be “working poor.” I try to take the high road of faith and think, “Well, I love you with all my heart”… but in this case, my love isn’t enough. Lets just hope GOD hears my prayers and forgives my weaknesses and the protection of Grace is really with you both. I really regret that I don’t physically/financially have more to give because I would give you your own safe world.
Submitted by: Joann
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