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I regret that you are way down there and I am up here. I regret we don’t communicate well and that this is complicated by the distance, a lack of funds and sometimes of hope. We are attached, have real attraction, desire; we laugh, but we are not kind, not tender, not patient with one another. We are lonely and afraid. There are so many obstacles but that last one is perhaps the biggest. It feels too hard to me, our arrangement; to you it feels destructive. We even fight about which it is and why. But when we are together, physically, as we were recently, this all falls away. It was only days ago that I saw you, understood you, forgave you everything, even wondered what there was to forgive; what was I so afraid of? I saw how beautiful you are, how vital and strong, how gentle you can be, how much you want to be loved. But now that we are apart again, it has all begun again. Your phone doesn’t work. We don’t work. Not now. Maybe some other time. Now it is too hard and too destructive. I will concede anything as long as we can agree not to hurt one another anymore.

Submitted by: Chicken