January 4, 2009
Thank you for saving my life….
She knows who she is… Hey A M P my lyssa meg i miss you im sorry i hurt you its hard to let go i thought if i got sober and got right with Church & God you would come back but i know i hurt you bad i know i betrayed you i know i put you through a hell that i could not understand until now and i am sorry…i cant use my mental illness as an excuse but i was sick and i caused the problems but my choice to dishonestly embrace drugs instead when i should have been embracing you i created this emptiness inside me and i wish i never did i wish i had you in my life to complete me and no matter how cool i try to be im not im really depressed and lonely and im sorry and i miss you and even if i never have you in my life again i just want you to have peace and happiness and to know that it wasnt your fault it was mine and if i can never be the man for you then i really hope ( and this hurts me from my innermost ) i really hope you find a good man that will fulfill your life with good and fulfill all your dreams and fulfill all of my promises to you instead…. i do love you and im really sorry…ya im not perfect but i make an effort and am making an effort to do right i wish i could take back all my wrong i really meant that email i sent you … i went to jail for it and got probation and ive stayed away because i didnt think you ever wanted me back after that but i thought if i straightened out you would come back…i guess i dreamed just a dream but thank you for saving my life because you did and i will always love you
Submitted by: NICKEL THE NUT
At 7:37 pm on January 13, 2009, Bill commented:
First step is coming clean, asking for forgiveness. It’s good you wish her well and let her go so you both can get on with new days, new ways, and a brighter future. Best of luck to you. You hit bottom. It’s only up from here.