January 10, 2009
I spent most of my time surfing the net and watching tv….
i regret ruining myself…. i used to be a good student until class 10. i studied hard, got good marks. i never got below 85%. my parents were proud of me. in 11th i took science stream because i thought i could do well and become an engineer. but then everything changed. i stopped working hard. i spent most of my time surfing the net and watching tv. i had changed. exams came and went, i kept on getting poor marks…but i never felt bad, never felt ashamed. my friends were shocked to see my poor performance.
11th was over and then came 12th…. the story was same…. i became even worse. now i have 3 months in hand… in march we have our final exams. i have realized that i have wasted 2 years…the 2 most important years of my life (my career) went in vain. my parents never questioned me because i told them that i’m not taking these exams seriously and that i’ll do well in final exams. they have faith in me. but i’m not at all prepared for the exams…. i don’t have faith in me. i’m very scared. i think i won’t be able to do well in the exams. my parents’ trust will break…. i don’t want to break their trust. i want to do well but i find no way out. i was thinking of committing suicide….but that’s not a solution… it will make my parents even more sad…. i must do something. i have decided that i’ll study well these 3 months…. and try to do well…at least for my parents…and for myself too…because i don’t want to regret this further in life.
Submitted by: nishita
At 9:14 am on January 12, 2009, Kelly commented:
Hey, don’t take it too hard. There are plenty of ways to get back on track. I blew it in high school myself. I went to community college, did well, then transferred to a better school, then another. I graduated Columbia. First, you should come clean to someone you trust, talk it out. We all deal with pressure differently — you, you retreated. A perfectly understandable response when things get overwhelming. You deserve to get all this stuff off your chest, feel good, reconnect to what gets you excited again. You’re so young. There’s no screwing up at your age — there are lessons, taking them in, then it’s about getting up and trying again and again. We do it all our lives, but at your age it’s a gift, reinvention, a thrill. So get up and get after it. It’s your life, not your parents’. You can make the best of mistakes, use them. Good luck.
At 11:09 pm on March 29, 2009, Otto commented:
I hope you’re doing better. I hope you’ve talked it out with someone. Gotten some support. The other commenter’s right: You are too young to give up.