April 17, 2009
I realize now that I was only enabling your drug habit….
Michael, I hope you will get this someday somehow. First of all, I love you and me and our precious little girl pray for you all the time. I am so sad that whoever this new woman is in your life has had the effect on our relationship and your relationship with our little girl that we can’t have any form of communication any more. We both miss you so much. I am crying so hard right now. I am sorry for the times over the years that I took up for you and lied for you like I see your mother is doing now. I realize now that I was only enabling your drug habit. I probably helped you more if I would have showed you more tough love. But I was so weak I never new how to tell you no. I am sorry that I ever tried that stuff once too. I am so ashamed. I am trying to forgive you for all the things you took from so many people and the hurt you did to me and my girls and my dad and your own family. I can’t even think of one true friend that you have. I know God is there and I hope and pray that you will reach out for him. I regret that I didn’t have a bigger impact in your life. I wanted to help you and run that devil out of your life. I am so sorry that I didn’t do a better job. But what hurts so much is that our little girl has nothing but love for you and it’s killing me to see her missing you so much. I am sorry you are missing out on that kind of love. It’s not too late Michael. You can still have a relationship with her. I still wish you would consider me your friend because I was always that and I was 100 percent faithful. You were the love of my life. I hope before I die that I will be able to see that I did make a good difference somehow in your life. Our baby girl could be the best thing for you if you would just call or come see her. I will never say anything but good things about you to her. Please forgive me for anything I did or didn’t do that was hurtful to you. I love you and I forgive you Michael, I do and though I have tried several times to lay all of this down to God… I still struggle with that. I know what I need to do and I regret that I haven’t already. I love you, I will always love you…Your Baby cya
Submitted by: Forever Your Baby
At 4:59 pm on April 18, 2009, Grace commented:
It sounds like his addiction is making his decisions for him, that whoever you love is lost for now, perhaps for good. I know it’s hard, but I would counsel letting him go, putting him behind you. He’ll just keep hurting you and your daughter, and you have an obligation to protect and preserve your well-being and hers. There are other men, wonderful ones, out there for you. It’s true. And you have your daughter and that’s a lot. Hang in there.