January 15, 2010
I let the opinion of someone influence a decision that has affected me for life….
I regret so much. I regret listening to that woman and going to that school, wasting 4 years of my life. Not because of the school itself or the people within, not because they tried hard and made themselves unique despite their financial or staffing setbacks. But because I let the opinion of someone influence a decision that has affected me for life perhaps. I had always wanted to try wrestling. Sure the stuff on tv was fake, but I at least wanted to prove myself physically that I could handle myself. But I chose the school with no sports programs. Certainly it was a magnet school and had some very beneficial programs, but I found out too late I was no longer interested in network technology. Now, in the 3rd year of my junior, here I am in a rut. Friendless. Not confident. Sure I could be the same if I hadn’t listened to that lady, but at least I could’ve tried. Tried and test myself. Maybe it would’ve been the motivation I needed to straighten up in my schoolwork. But that’s now lost. I wish I could have it back. But now all I’m considered is an awkward shut in. This regret has caused me to absolutely loathe myself. I wish I could make the hurt go away.
Submitted by: S.L.S
At 1:16 am on January 15, 2010, JJ commented:
What about transferring? What about changing things? You pursued something, tried, and you found it wasn’t for you. There’s nothing to be angry at yourself about there. That’s what we’re all meant to do — sample things. To be human is to fail or run into disappointment, at least half the time. You’re still young (early 20s?); your life’s far from over; it’s just begun and now you’re armed with the most powerful knowledge out there — to listen to your gut.