iRegret.net

I regret letting myself get like this. I regret not being myself. I regret lying to so many people about so many things. I regret becoming the recluse I have become. I regret saying “I’m starting over right now” and never doing it. I regret cutting. I regret talking to two other guys while you thought I was all yours. I regret not leaving you sooner. I regret getting back in contact with you. I regret lying to God. I regret turning my back on God. I regret letting my baptism mean nothing. I regret how fast I can type this because I have so much to say. I regret not getting my number changed earlier. I regret not having a relationship with any of my family. I regret what I did to my body. I regret that I planned it. I regret being too aggressive and awkward. I regret not going to therapy sooner. I regret telling people I hate them when I have no hate in me. I regret going behind my parents’ backs. I regret giving in to Kyle sometimes. I regret not taking better care of my animals. I regret living my childhood and this part of my teenage years the way I did. I regret not picking myself up sooner. And most of all, I regret the fact that I hate myself so god damn much.

Submitted by: E.