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I regret ever giving in to paying for sex.  It seemed so convenient.  I got what I wanted and could walk away feeling satisfied, but instead I felt dirty, seedy and cheap.  I trivialized a beautiful experience and kept coming back for more because the variety and sense of power made me feel like I am more than I am.  I was not satisfied with my life and looked outside instead of inside for comfort and happiness.  I was miserable in my marriage and felt cheated and trapped.  The whores were an outlet for my pain.  They were the wrong outlet.  Therapy did not help at the time.  Now that I am divorced and truly in love, I look back on that time frame with tremendous regrets.  I should have left sooner.  I should have listened to my parents and grandparents when they said she was not right for me, but I didn’t listen.  I thought she would change.  She did.  She got worse and I also got worse.  It took over a decade for it to finally come to a head and now two small lives are also impacted by this poor judgement.  I regret what I have done and where I have been, but I have turned over a new leaf and am heading in a more productive direction.  I have reaffirmed my faith.  I have learned to love myself for who I am.  I have learned to appreciate me for me and to cut myself some slack.  I have also learned to hold myself accountable for what’s important.  My new love has shown me the right doors and I have willingly stepped through them eager to make the positive changes necessary for me to enjoy my life.  The best revenge is living well.  I don’t know where I’m going, but I’m on my way.

Submitted by: Walter E. H.