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I don’t even know where to begin with my situation. But I recently have been having sex with my neighbor, who’s married. It all started about month ago when he came to me out in the parking lot. At first it was just kissing, the next day he told me it can’t happen again. A few days later, he changes his mind and wants to get together again. We kiss, he changes his mind once again. After the first time we had sex, he changes his mind again! It happened again and once more after that. He would tell me that he couldn’t do it because of he was afraid he’d get caught and lose his children. Last week was the last time we had sex and the next day he told me he couldn’t anymore because of a horrible dream he had that night about getting caught sleeping with me.It’s none of my business to explain what goes on in his household, but him and his wife are on bad terms and they always have been. They have been married for three years and got married only because she got pregnant. And just last night, it got extremely physical between them. He showed me the marks.He went out to the bar and came home drunk and wanted to have sex then and I said no because of the condition he was in.A huge part of me feels so bad for him because of how his wife treats him, and I know he treats her bad too. He asked me if he was a good father and he is. I truly care about this guy, not any more than a friend though. I could never date him and I know he would NEVER leave his wife, especially not any time soon, and especially not for me.All he wants is someone who cares for him and shows affection for him.I’m not writing this blog submission for opinions or advice, I’m just writing this because there’s nowhere else to write and nobody to talk to.Submitted by: ellie