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When I think back, I hear the sadness in your voice during our last phone call in your attempt to find comfort from a lifelong friend… but I was too rushed and distracted. Instead of listening I mostly talked at you. I dismissed your recent break-up so casually just a few days before Valentine’s Day. And then I forgot to even call you on V Day to check in and tell you I love you.

Since you died unexpectedly just days after V Day, I’ve regretted my selfishness in general. I always expected you to be there and I took advantage of knowing you would always love me despite my flaws.

I should have been as caring and thoughtful towards you as you always were to me. Your last birthday gift was the most generous gift I’ve ever received and I regret not having the opportunity to do the same for you.

I also regret my last email to you, which I’m not even certain you received since it was sent the morning of the day you died – you expressed how badly you wanted to take an adventure trip with me somewhere you had never been before. Instead of matching your enthusiasm, I needlessly brought up all my concerns about time/money and tried to put the brakes on your excitement until I had time to do more research. I wish I had fully supported the trip. I wish we had gone away together to have a 30th b-day vacation like you really wanted to. I regret that you never actually had a 30th and that instead of a party we had a memorial service in your honor.

I regret most of all that you are not here with us still, in person. I regret that you will not have children of your own and grow old gracefully, as I’m certain you would have. I miss your laughter and sunshine-filled presence. You deserved more in this lifetime, my friend. I hope you know how much I truly deeply love and value you always.

Submitted by: Elizabeth