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Blake, I regret giving you this much of my life. I regret giving you the chance to be “more” and a 6 day trial. More over, I’m sorry I listened to you when you said you’re kind, honorable and unlike “him.” I regret continuing to give you choice over “him” and I regret that I do so knowingly each time. I regret that I let you disrespect me and my feelings while I constantly try to respect yours.

Bradley, I regret I let Blake down-talk you. I regret not giving you the real shot at being “more.” I regret that I wasn’t there for you when you really needed a friend. I regret, even though it’s not my fault, the actions of everyone who has hurt you–and those actions that have lead you to keep people out and prevent you from loving. I regret calling myself your “friend” when I have been anything but. And I regret I will inevitably push you away from me once more out of the selfish fact that I feel unworthy and without value to you. I regret pushing you away in the first place and I regret not giving you the respect that you deserve. I owe you the world but all I’ve given you is tension.

I regret that the way I should be treating you, Bradley, is the way I treat Blake–I regret not treating you the way you should be treated, the way I always know you should’ve been. And Blake, I regret not completely walking away from you in our junior year.

I hate myself for regretting all of this.

Submitted by: Carly