July 21, 2008
I want everyone to like me and in so doing I lose myself….
I regret how bad I have felt about myself for most of my life. I regret not being a better friend to myself and following my gut more often. I am a pleaser. I want everyone to like me and in doing so I lose myself. Sometimes I lose others too. But how do I just start liking myself? Easier said than done. I have read a good bit of self-help that recommends stopping yourself everytime that you criticize your self. Okay, reasonable. I’ll try it. What else? Forgive myself when I think I have made a mistake. Just let it go when I have made a minor mistake and forgive myself for major ones. This is hard work, daily work, work that may last a life time. I will have this record here for me to review when I need to be kinder to myself. I spend so much time trying to be the compassionate pardoner to others that I repremad myself when I feel angry when others do hurtful things. But I can’t control other people. I can let them know when I feel taken advantage of. I can let them know that their promises do mean a lot to me when they let me down. I can have standards about the way I wish to be treated while also being forgiving to others when they do not keep promises.
Submitted by: To me
At 11:28 pm on July 21, 2008, Anonymous commented:
Very well Portrayed.. U r as beautiful & sincere as u express urself.. be that .. god bless u