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Okay, this has been killing me, I went out with this guy keith around september, he pressured me some but, at the same time I wanted to rebel against everything and just do it. We had sex, I wasn’t on birth control and tried to talk to my mom about it. She flipped out, called his mom, found out we were sneaking out together to do all that, and really didnt want us to be together. But she wouldve been okay with it…until…he sent himself to circles of care that next week, and said he wanted to kill himself cuz of what happend between us. When he got back from COC, according to his mom, he beat up his eleven yr old sister, and a week later hurt his mom too. Everyone was afraid he would hurt me too one day, and I honestly couldnt see him doing that to me, b/c he never showed an angry side to me. My mom hated him for what he did to his family, she did everything it took to get us away from each other. She threatened to send me to boarding school. Or, get a restraining order, at the time I was scared and the more important thing was protecting me, and not gettin shipped away or something, so I chose to get a restrainin order, it kills me to this day. I just wish I could talk to him, it’s expiring in December, and I feel like I should talk to him then, he was my first, and yeah, I’m still very attatched to him. I mean. this time has been good for healing and everything, but there’s been so so much pain too. Ive heard since he moved that hes been in jail, and has now ran away, nobody has heard from him in 2 weeks and I just hope and pray that he is alright. I miss him so much.

Submitted by: Savannah A.