July 4, 2009
When did I become so fragile that a computer could tear me in two?
I regret falling in love with you after you dumped me. I regret becoming your friend. You are the only person I feel safe talking to now, and I know that is not healthy for me right now. I regret spending my days and nights at the computer hoping you’ll want to talk to me. I regret letting you make me so insecure.
I use most of my energy acting happy for you and everyone else so that things don’t have to change. I don’t know why I work so hard to keep things how they are, because these past four months have been the worst of my life. But I know that things do have to change, because otherwise one day I’ll wake up and you’ll have changed your relationship status on facebook and my heart will break for the second time.
When did I become so fragile that a computer could tear me in two? I regret letting you become so important that I worry about missing a second of conversation with you. And I regret that I know if you asked I would be yours in a heartbeat. I love you. And I need to move on.
Submitted by: db
At 9:54 pm on July 4, 2009, db done commented:
So shut your piehole and stop worying about facebook. You’ve had your say now. Move on already.
At 9:25 am on July 17, 2009, Afriend commented:
I feel for you, I went through a VERY similar situation. It gets better in time, but time passes slowly for a broken heart.
At 2:22 pm on July 23, 2009, ek1984 commented:
If this is MY db…you are the love of my life and that will never, ever change. Sorry it took me so long to tell you. It hurts me to know that you have regrets, but I understand why. I would sooner hurt myself than see you suffer. My FB status is going to change (even though you won’t see it now) and I WILL be there (in a heartbeat) when your status changes too. I love you and miss you every minute of every day.