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I regret telling you that I would “be ok” if you left me. I don’t even really remember saying it. I certainly didn’t mean it. I did and said a lot of things that I would take back if I could. I was too stupid and inexperienced to pull off a relationship like ours. I wanted it, I just didn’t have the experience to know the do’s and don’ts.

But, those words couldn’t possibly have been more wrong. It’s been over 3 years, almost as long as our relationship, since you went back home and I am most definitely not “ok”. I’ve been through a lot. I’ve changed a lot. But, though others have come and gone, I am still in love with the only person I have ever loved, the only person who ever knew the real me and someone that I will never see again.

I also regret being cold and neutral in response to your post-break-up emails. I was in too much pain and, frankly, not in my right mind for a very long time. You were the only thing that has ever given my life any validation and to go from that to trying to be your “friend” from across the country was way too much to take.

I know you’ll never see this but, if there’s anything left to believe in, maybe you will. If so, contrary to what I’ve lead you to believe, it would be good to hear from you and I’m still, regretfully, in love with you.

Submitted by: Scott R