September 19, 2009
I am UNABLE to turn away from physical attention….
I regret that I am seriously UNABLE to turn away from physical attention. Ever since I messed up a year ago (when I genuinely thought I was in love with my soul-mate), I have even lower self esteem than I’ve ever had. I wish I could erase all of my wrongdoings but I just continue to make the same mistakes over and over and I have NO excuses. I’m terrified someone will find out what I’ve resorted to. I’m soooo sorry to the man who loves me more than anything…if he only knew…it would kill him. I love him with all my heart but I seriously need help. The happenings of a year ago haunt me every single day.
Submitted by: MeAgain
At 11:45 pm on October 24, 2009, Sobriety commented:
You need to go talk to someone, get some help, so you can get to the bottom of these impulses. Everyone craves affection, physical, emotional, etc., and most people have gone to extremes, sometimes hurtful or wrongheaded extremes, to get it. You’re not alone, but think about breaking this cycle of needing, getting, then regretting. Life is more than this, and you know it.