November 22, 2009
I regret not saying no to her crashing my life and hers….
First i regret getting married to someone when i know nothing about her, a pen friend who got deeply in love with me so i was scared to break her down, so i marry (note: we are from 2 diff. cultures, country, language). foolishly now we got 3 kids. each time, each step i make to make our life become better happier NEVER works….she is sad all time, 8 years now with no friends, 100% dependent on me, on every move, following that, i’m born and raised in foster houses… so mistakes follow each one. i owe the bank more than 200,000.00 dollars. brain tumor and epilepsy patient. I REGRET not saying NO to her crashing my life and hers, I REGRET taking the loans from the bank, I REGRET removing the tumor from my head, not keeping it to kill me slowly…. I REGRET having 3 boys who are being beating by her, living a life isolated from the surroundings because she is always scared, paranoid, beating them…. cuz that’s the way she was raised, beating keeps kids close to the mother (slaves) and that is what she want….. for that and more i decide not to take my nurology medications for my head problems which i may die and they will get the house from the govt. the loan will be dropped. and i hope she get involve with someone who she love more than me…
Submitted by: KDD
At 7:43 pm on January 7, 2010, Anonymous commented:
hey..listen i have a brain tumor ..and i cant imagine stop taking my medication because i regret everything i did for someone i thought i loved at one point. you have 3 kids who depend on you if anything how do you think that will affect your kids?? you might not undesrstand me but kids need both of their parents in their lives and they prolly need you to help stop the abuse their takin from their mother! If u live in america then follow the amercian way. if u dont like it go backk! abuse isnt acceptable from anyone.idc where your from its not acceptable here.. and also at least you have the advantage of getting help for your tumor i cant even afford to go to the doctors anymore…
At 3:52 am on July 8, 2012, JaQ commented:
You need to pray for guidance. Suicide is never the answer, even if it is by neglect as you say. I am praying for you.
I am in a crappy marriage too but I have to find a way to either make it work or leave. So do you. Have hope. You are not alone.