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I’m sorry I said what I said, and did what I did. I was on antidepressants (which were supposed to help my irregular heartbeat) and treated everyone badly; friends, family, even strangers, but you got the brunt. I became angry, violent, paranoid, I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to live up to the expectations I had set, and would disappoint you. I told you that your affections made me angry, that you had no value as a person, but that wasn’t me talking. The fact is you are the only person I ever loved, ever cared about, ever wanted to spend every moment with. It was a blessing to wake up next to you every morning and lie down next to you each night.
It was such a coincidence that we met that I believe it was destiny; both of us growing up so close to each other, yet meeting on the opposite side of the country. The fact that we aren’t together seems to have thrown the universe out of sync, but I have no one to blame but myself. It’s been a few years, and the effects of the medication I was taking have since faded, but even now I still feel the remorse over how I treated you and tossed you aside, when I should have spent every day telling you how important you are. I’ll never forget you, and I’ll cherish every memory of our time together.

Submitted by: D