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my whole entire life all i wanted was to find the perfect girl for me and i had her…except what kind of relationship can be built on a lie? i lied about who i was, i lied about sleeping with another woman when we were first getting to know each other, i lied about a lot of things. i never trusted her because i never trusted myself, and now she’s gone from me forever. i’m sorry that i caused so many problems for her, her family and her friends. i only did the things i did because i was angry at my self for pushing her away and now she’s lost to me forever… i’m sorry for the pain i caused her and our children but i regret that i didn’t do things right even when i had numerous chances to be a better friend to her. i regret not getting my divorce so i could be her fairy tale prince and give her that fairy tale ending that she wants. i regret not being there for her emotionally. i regret not telling her the truth so she could be angry and get over it, but instead i lied and she was more pissed that i lied than about what i did… i regret that i have learned all this too late… had i paid attention to her words and listened to her feeling i wouldn’t be where i am now, but most of all i regret being so selfish… i regret doing things that were not done in a loving manner like calling the cops on her when she wouldn’t do what i wanted, or putting my hands upon her in an abusive matter and for opening the car door on her stomach when she was pregnant with our first child. i regret not showing her how much i really loved her, because nothing i can do now will ever change the fact that i am nothing but a loser. i’m a loser because i am at fault for the things i have done and for the consequences that followed.  the only thing i really regret is not doing things right in the first place. i apologize for destroying a kind loving beautiful woman

Submitted by: Harun