bn – i regret letting my guard down for you. i thought you were different but how could you be? i regret overlooking the obvious and thinking it could work. i regret the drive to see you. i regret this broken heart that has no right to be broken. i regret that i can’t get over you and it hurts to think about it all. i never regret anything but i regret this.
Submitted by: AB
I regret using my love for you as an excuse to not face my fears and for blaming you for that. I regret convincing myself that you loved me when you didn’t so that I would have the excuse in the first place. I regret that you wanted to love me and couldn’t because of your messed up family. I regret that we could not love each other as we should have, and as we were meant to, because we were both so screwed up in the first place. Fair trade in wasted time, emotion, and dead ends. Why did we dump so much baggage on each other? I regret that I can’t go back to the first night we met knowing what I know now, and either turn around and walk out that door, or somehow do things differently so that all these years later I would not find myself writing this here. The person I was that first night could never have foreseen this night in a million years.
Submitted by: back from hell baby
I regret my job requires me to deal with so many big egos, people who are so self-involved and self-aggrandizing they’ve forgotten courtesy and civility. They see the world only in hierarchical terms — who matters, who doesn’t, who’s in, who’s out. I can’t quit. Not in this economy, but someday soon I’m out. Someone else can pet and stroke these monsters who stomp and preen and whose insecurities and appetites for flattery are never calmed or satisfied.
Submitted by: AG
Michael, I hope you will get this someday somehow. First of all, I love you and me and our precious little girl pray for you all the time. I am so sad that whoever this new woman is in your life has had the effect on our relationship and your relationship with our little girl that we can’t have any form of communication any more. We both miss you so much. I am crying so hard right now. I am sorry for the times over the years that I took up for you and lied for you like I see your mother is doing now. I realize now that I was only enabling your drug habit. I probably helped you more if I would have showed you more tough love. But I was so weak I never new how to tell you no. I am sorry that I ever tried that stuff once too. I am so ashamed. I am trying to forgive you for all the things you took from so many people and the hurt you did to me and my girls and my dad and your own family. I can’t even think of one true friend that you have. I know God is there and I hope and pray that you will reach out for him. I regret that I didn’t have a bigger impact in your life. I wanted to help you and run that devil out of your life. I am so sorry that I didn’t do a better job. But what hurts so much is that our little girl has nothing but love for you and it’s killing me to see her missing you so much. I am sorry you are missing out on that kind of love. It’s not too late Michael. You can still have a relationship with her. I still wish you would consider me your friend because I was always that and I was 100 percent faithful. You were the love of my life. I hope before I die that I will be able to see that I did make a good difference somehow in your life. Our baby girl could be the best thing for you if you would just call or come see her. I will never say anything but good things about you to her. Please forgive me for anything I did or didn’t do that was hurtful to you. I love you and I forgive you Michael, I do and though I have tried several times to lay all of this down to God… I still struggle with that. I know what I need to do and I regret that I haven’t already. I love you, I will always love you…Your Baby cya
Submitted by: Forever Your Baby
I regret doing many shameful things with someone I didn’t care about and thinking I could get away with it. I regret the selfishness and hedonism that I now associate with the memories. Now you and I love each other so much, and I understand why you can’t be with me, but I have never felt so dirty and powerless.
Submitted by: Anonymous
I regret letting you fall in love with me… I regret being careless with your heart. I am so sorry that I let you believe it was more than it could ever be. I am sorry that I let you adore me. You’ll never know.
Submitted by: Whoever you need me to be
i regret not being patient, if i had been i could be with you now.
but im not. just alone and depressed.
its not fair to miss someone so much.
Submitted by: j
Okay, this has been killing me, I went out with this guy keith around september, he pressured me some but, at the same time I wanted to rebel against everything and just do it. We had sex, I wasn’t on birth control and tried to talk to my mom about it. She flipped out, called his mom, found out we were sneaking out together to do all that, and really didnt want us to be together. But she wouldve been okay with it…until…he sent himself to circles of care that next week, and said he wanted to kill himself cuz of what happend between us. When he got back from COC, according to his mom, he beat up his eleven yr old sister, and a week later hurt his mom too. Everyone was afraid he would hurt me too one day, and I honestly couldnt see him doing that to me, b/c he never showed an angry side to me. My mom hated him for what he did to his family, she did everything it took to get us away from each other. She threatened to send me to boarding school. Or, get a restraining order, at the time I was scared and the more important thing was protecting me, and not gettin shipped away or something, so I chose to get a restrainin order, it kills me to this day. I just wish I could talk to him, it’s expiring in December, and I feel like I should talk to him then, he was my first, and yeah, I’m still very attatched to him. I mean. this time has been good for healing and everything, but there’s been so so much pain too. Ive heard since he moved that hes been in jail, and has now ran away, nobody has heard from him in 2 weeks and I just hope and pray that he is alright. I miss him so much.
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To Cheryl: I regret that you were born, I regret that the office allowed you to get away with everything that you did and I regret not being sorrier that you are dead.
Submitted by: David
We had a dog when I was a kid. He didn’t like us much, but I think we could have worked harder to love him and earn his affection. We were never home, ran around like our lives depended on keeping active… I saw a lonely-looking mutt today that made me think of him.
Submitted by: Laura
Herman: I’m still so sorry I wrecked your car. It was the sweetest car. You loved it like it was your offspring. It’s been years, but it still gets to me.
Submitted by: Joey V
iregret not killin myself that day. i was only playing whit him. i told my ex husdand i was fucking another guy to get him becuase he got me upset, he didnt care how i felt so i didnt giv a fuck how he felt. we broke up. The next day he wanted to fuck me n i said “no.” he slap me i took i nife n stave him. but i love him so much.(stephy)
Submitted by: lozer
You were miserable to me. The more I loved, tried to be there, the more you needed to hurt me, to cast me off. The drinking, the cheating, the general fucking-up and old-school meanness. Mostly I don’t think of it or you anymore. But sometimes when I am down or feeling ill, when I am prone to regret or sorrow or negative stuff, you come back and how much I loved you and wanted to help to no avail. But when I’m stronger there are times too that I want to reach out, to mend things between us, to forgive, believe you’re capable of being a better man now, give you that chance, that faith, because I need it at times, to have signs of the best parts of you still, now, but I know, as much as I know anything, that you’d hurt me again, even if it’s only kindness, simple friendship, respect, traveling to a new place we’re after. I can’t contact you, I can’t allow myself to give you any of me, even my forgiveness. And I regret that more than anything else, even the years I devoted to your brokenness: that it’s too great a risk to me to show us both something new and hopeful. Yes, I regret that more than anything, that there are some things beyond repair.
Submitted by: A
To Forest, Brad, Joseph, Enrico, Jill, everyone else:
Every day of my life, I’m spitting in your faces, and I’m sorry. I wish I could admit why, I wish I could come out and say it, but I can’t. Even so, I know that what I’m doing, or thinking, is tarnishing your memory every single day and the guilt I feel is relentless. No matter how hard I work against it, again and again I twist the knife. I wish I could stop myself, but I can’t. If you were still here, maybe I could explain it… maybe I could at least try. But you’re not… and I know that part isn’t my fault, but I know whose fault it is. Everyone thinks I’m doing anything I can to fight against him, and it’s not true. I could be doing so much more.
I’m sorry. I don’t expect forgiveness, but I had to say something.
Submitted by: Chris
I regret ever having spent part of my life with you. I was young. I was stupid. And because of your ‘obsession’, I got pregnant and was forced into an abortion. Now, with the love of my life, I am unable to carry a child to term and you bet your ass I blame you.
Submitted by: M
I’m sorry for all those little white lies I’ve told over the years. It took me much too long to realize that I could never live up to some of the things I said. I’m trying to be honest, and make sure to do at least one good deed each day. I’m also sorry for all those people that I told my lies to that ended up feeling betrayed and hurt.
Submitted by: Lost
I’m sorry, baby.
I’m sorry for every time that I wasn’t there for you. I’m sorry for all the times we fought over rubbish, most of them were my fault. I’m sorry for being a fool. I’m sorry for not giving you space. I’m sorry for having been a child, a needy idiot. I’m sorry for being obsessed and possessive.
I regret letting you slip through my hands. I hurt and regret the fact that I will never look into your eyes again.
I miss your rebellious ways. I miss smelling your neck on the pillow. I miss listening to your heartbeats. I miss taking a bath with you and talking about the universe.
I have stopped wishing to get you back. I am filled with regret and sadness, as I have been for these last three years.
I only wish to one day forget you, and love again. Live again.
Submitted by: Rain
I’m sorry Brandon for everything that has happened I still wanna be yours Im not looking for anyone else Like i told you i will wait for you, even if its in another lifetime.
Submitted by: Silina
I regret saying no, because now I’ll never have a chance.
Submitted by: anonymous
i’m sorry luise, for whatever i did.
i still miss your friendship all the time.
Submitted by: mj
i regret
becoming accustomed to you,
letting you take my breath away,
noticing little things like
how you sigh into my hair
and hold me like
you know i’m breaking.
i regret it
all.
Submitted by: Stella
I regret not telling you.
I regret not kissing you.
I regret the awkward goodbye hug in the hall.
I regret not coming home earlier that night.
I regret not going to the second day of Osheaga.
I regret not seeing you again.
I regret not getting to know you.
I regret it all but am happy to know you. You are wonderful.
Submitted by: Marcela
You discovered this site. We’d visit it together. You thought it full of humanity, empathy. Sometimes it made us laugh. Since you left, I keep waiting to hear from you here. I need to have your regret in hand. All this feels unreal. After ten years together. I keep waiting for something concrete. A letter, a post, words on a screen, you back here where you belong.
Submitted by: Portia
I’m sorry I’m not there for you today. It’s odd: I want to be, have the time, and ready to, yet I’ve failed you so many times that it somehow doesn’t seem like an option to you. Maybe you’re just protecting yourself from my failing you (again), from cutting corners or doing less than you need. Fair enough. Like the boy who cried wolf, I’ve worked so hard in the past to insulate myself, doing other things, that you no longer can imagine I could see you first — even now, when I’m ready and able to. It may ring hollow after so long, but I really am here for you.
Submitted by: Rick
I regret keeping the dentist at bay. Today I pay — root canal. Oh well, better late than toothless