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Too few to mention, well maybe one.  The stairs creaked as I climbed to the third floor. She opened the door and let me in once she saw I was probably not dangerous.  I wasn’t. The harm done was to myself.  I gave in to my fascination and ache.  I chose a girl who called herself Bobbi.  She was young with red hair and she wore a black leather skirt and fishnets.  I paid a C note to the older woman who seemed to run the place, the one who let me in. I pulled Bobbi over my lap, lifted her skirt and paddled her behind. It brought tears to her eyes.  I put a few bucks in her pocket once she was back in jeans. After my time ran, I walked through Times Square and thought about my pure power trip turn on. The buzz was faint. I regretted making the girl jump a little. She, just a kid making ends meet.Submitted by: Tumble Reed

Hi XFF, I’m really sorry that I could show my feelings for u as I am in love with u… & I still am… so what do I do?… when I know u don’t love me… maybe when we were together… u gave me few hints… but in the end I felt that u never ever liked me or loved me… when u choose the other side… at least u can tell me that now… why ??… I guess then I would be satisfied & can move on… even if it is as bitter as possible… I will take that… but I want to know the reason.

Submitted by: OLD MAN

I have been unkind to men. My father was never around, cheated on my mother, drank too much, so I did not trust them. I was even cruel at times, wanting to distance myself from them and their interest in me. I had so little respect. I’ve met someone I love and respect now, a good man, who has had patience with me, and so I can see it all, that it came from hurt in me. I wish I could have done better.

Submited by: Carrie

Oh! I am glad to stumble on this website! I REGRET! I REGRET SO MUCH, AND WANT TO SHARE IT WITH THE WORLD THIS MORNING! I REGRET the day I was born, the day my ancestors were born, I regret the day I met him, I regret that my love life is either pain or loneliness and no in-between, that I have to do everything myself from paying the bills to jacking myself off, that no one is there in my defense at any time, only as observers and devils advocates, that I am not only misunderstood but resented even by my closest friend that I love with all my heart, that I am in debt, that I am losing my job, that I have finally learned it is not my actions but ME, my good and bad, the authentic me is hated, and when I play along and live a dead life, that is when I am tolerated, but when I express myself, I am punished and shamed! I regret that my family is still alive or I would take sleeping pills tomorrow with a strong drink and a plastic bag secured over my head. I regret my youth, and every decade of my life, I was a witness to it but never NEVER a participant. And for all the comforts to ease the pain, there is so much giving with nothing in return, I have given all of myself, there is nothing left, I am devoid of empathy for anything because I am now devoid of concern for myself. I regret I regret I regret. I’ve owned my mistakes and take responsibility for my responses to all situations in my life, I have no control over any of it any more. Happy 39th Birthday to me this week, I regret I regret I regret!

Submitted by: Atlanta person

It’s f—ing hard. I cheated on my wife. She doesn’t know. It felt great for a while. Now I just feel like shit. I mean real shit. I think I gotta tell her. I need the punishment.Submitted by: Antoine

I should have never voted for Bush. I should have never left my wife. I should have never bought this shit car. Can’t go back but I wish I could.Submitted by: Fred

There’s this guy at work whose face I want to smash. He thinks intelligence is about being critical of just about everything and everyone; he thinks it’s all about asserting ego, having edge, being in the know, cool, with an arsenal of opinions (often not his own) at the ready. He’s hyper-competitive so when you go to him about a work matter, go without an agenda, he reads one into it. Everything is about the self (he MUST have his own blog). He can’t imagine, given the limits of his world view, that you’re just doing your job, have an innocuous request, or maybe sometimes are just trying to chat, be kind, open, find something redeeming despite the odds. But I didn’t come here to vent, though that’s helpful, but to say how much I regret the effect this guy has on me. He often brings me down to his level — he carps or accuses and I get defensive and do the same, get into this whole one-upmanship. I get so discouraged about my own capacity to rise above. I want to simply shake him off, walk away, let it go (there’s no teaching or communicating when he knows it all, is in charge of attacks and quips), but I feel it rising — I want to smash his face.

Submitted by: Cat

I regret how bad I have felt about myself for most of my life. I regret not being a better friend to myself and following my gut more often. I am a pleaser. I want everyone to like me and in doing so I lose myself. Sometimes I lose others too. But how do I just start liking myself? Easier said than done. I have read a good bit of self-help that recommends stopping yourself everytime that you criticize your self. Okay, reasonable. I’ll try it. What else? Forgive myself when I think I have made a mistake. Just let it go when I have made a minor mistake and forgive myself for major ones. This is hard work, daily work, work that may last a life time. I will have this record here for me to review when I need to be kinder to myself.  I spend so much time trying to be the compassionate pardoner to others that I repremad myself when I feel angry when others do hurtful things.  But I can’t control other people. I can let them know when I feel taken advantage of. I can let them know that their promises do mean a lot to me when they let me down. I can have standards about the way I wish to be treated while also being forgiving to others when they do not keep promises.

Submitted by: To me

I regret becoming involved with a person that I met casually and even initially wanted as a friend. I may have even approached her first about a get together — hard to remember the details. While I find myself caring for someone because she has a tough home life, I do not like being needed/wanted by her. I don’t enjoy her company  yet I find myself doing things with her.  I also need friends but I feel strangled in this relationship.

I have compassion for her circumstances but there is no flow.  I welcome comments to this post.

Submitted by: Dani

To my children. I am sorry that I hurt you and that you got taken away from me and that you had to go through all that crap. To my girls I will get you back from your father and to my son I hope that one day you’ll forget that you were in foster care. The drugs were never more important than you, I just got caught with a lot of pot. I have quit now so I could get you back and I have got you back my son. Next is you my two beautiful girls. It’s been three years and a whole lot of heart break but it’s almost over. I love all three of you with everything in me and I will do whatever it takes. Love you, Mom

Submitted by: Clorenda Yeager

Mother: Please don’t feel guilty about me anymore. You prefer my little sister to me. Your baby. You can’t help it. I know now, after all these years, it’s just that you two are a better fit. It used to break my heart, but now I know it’s just life and that there are so many people who choose me first, with whom I fit. I love you; you love me. You worry for me here in the city. You think I’m too young to be so alone. You wish you could be a better mother. Stop. No more regrets like this. For either of us. You’ve been the best. I’m strong, just like you when Dad left us. You’re human. We all have favorites. We all have weaknesses. I’ll love you no matter what. You encouraged me to dance, and now I’m making a go of it here. I owe you that and lots, lots more.

Submitted by: Eve

i regret that team america was ever made. damn what a bad movie.

Submitted by: David

I regret we let Hillary Clinton go — Obama has raised expectations so high that they’re likely to fall and perhaps take him and his promise with it, terminally. Hillary is no angel but she’s not pretending to be something she’s not or, really, she can’t pretend or not very effectively — she’s a politician, first and foremost. She thrills to the fight. She gets dirty, has to. Poor Obama won’t know what to do when people begin to show disappointment. He forgets the job doesn’t require him to be a prophet but rather to be a custodian.Submitted by: Betsy

I regret being so venomous to you, JD. Those words I can never amend, I’m sorry. I really needed a friend that week, maybe asked too much from you. Sorry too for bothering you so often, it’s just that I loved hearing your voice, soft yet strong. You were right when you said I needed to find peace. I felt that you didn’t want me close but didn’t want me gone, for more than the obvious reasons. Wish I could erase everything. I know it’s too late and you will prob never see this, I needed to say sorry though. U r not a snake. I am not a heartbreaker, am broken hearted. –AB aka psycho

I couldn’t stand it. I felt so alone and so immature and so, i don’t know, unworthy. I had to do it, even though it’s put me in a whole situation that i don’t know how i’ll get out of. I’m sorry i told you i was pregnant. I’m sorry that i made up the whole story, from beginning to end, and i’m sorry that i’m still a virgin. I know that that will disappoint you if you ever find out. I’m sorry that i faked the pregnancy test, took a whole shitload of cough syrup before hand, even dabbed some on the peestick. I’m sorry if I worried you, even though you seemed like you couldn’t have cared less. I’m sorry I’m a fantastic liar.

Submitted by: ER

Blake, I regret giving you this much of my life. I regret giving you the chance to be “more” and a 6 day trial. More over, I’m sorry I listened to you when you said you’re kind, honorable and unlike “him.” I regret continuing to give you choice over “him” and I regret that I do so knowingly each time. I regret that I let you disrespect me and my feelings while I constantly try to respect yours.

Bradley, I regret I let Blake down-talk you. I regret not giving you the real shot at being “more.” I regret that I wasn’t there for you when you really needed a friend. I regret, even though it’s not my fault, the actions of everyone who has hurt you–and those actions that have lead you to keep people out and prevent you from loving. I regret calling myself your “friend” when I have been anything but. And I regret I will inevitably push you away from me once more out of the selfish fact that I feel unworthy and without value to you. I regret pushing you away in the first place and I regret not giving you the respect that you deserve. I owe you the world but all I’ve given you is tension.

I regret that the way I should be treating you, Bradley, is the way I treat Blake–I regret not treating you the way you should be treated, the way I always know you should’ve been. And Blake, I regret not completely walking away from you in our junior year.

I hate myself for regretting all of this.

Submitted by: Carly

im sorry to justin… for fucking you over after i promised id never hurt you. im sorry for leaving you. and im sorry i wasnt enough for you carl. and im sorry for cheating on you. fred; i know i said i loved you. and i thought i did, and im sorry for cheating on you too, but you cheated on me and it hurt me so bad… youll never know. and jeremy…screw you for leaving me behind like you did, and im sorry i couldnt do everything you asked of me. and im sorry mom for running away and not bein what you wanted but your a sucky mother and you should let me live somewhere else

Submitted by: Ashley [hanni kohl]

I think about you everyday and have for a long time. The connection we have is something special and I realize you said time and patience but I wish you could let me in a little. We could be working on a friendship if nuttin more right now and that invitation for the hike is still open. I would love to be sittin by the campfire and have you appear outta nowhere and just sit with me and talk to me. I promise not to hurt you and yes I am going to back my words. It surprised me that you remembered what brand phone I got, please surprise me again and show up u know where and u know when….

Submitted by: Black Rose

 March 9, 2005- I remember walking into the reptile housing, and seeing all the little green monsters running around, playing, when I opened the cage door, EVERY little iguana darted to the back, except for you Bacchus. You came right to the front and climbed out onto me… I knew someone chose me… And for three more years everything I did, was done with you. I regret not being at the house when you decided to leave, I miss you SOOO badly! Please know that you and you alone were my BEST friend. I love you little dragon! Ta gra agam ort mo chroi! Thank you for saving me when I needed it.

Submitted by: 5toby bauer

I think about you every day, Christine.  I regret what happened between us, but I regret what didn’t happen more… I wish we were still in contact.  I know you have a new job, so good luck.  You know where to reach me if you ever want to.

Submitted by: Mr Next Life

I regret knowing u then and I regret findin u again 10 years later. I don’t understand why one day you’re nice and the next ur kinda rude. I’m gettin the feelin that u purposly don’t want me to know u. I’m afraid that u are in a relationship or are only keepin me around outta fear that somethin may be said about back then. I don’t know but I’m sorry that you don’t know me. I’m gonna walk away, it’s hard cuz, well u know what I said that night when I had too much to drink. I’ve never felt this way about anyone, I don’t want to be hurt. I’m sorry, cold fish, for loving you.

Submitted by: In Love With the Nice Asshole

I regret the time I slept with a prostitute. She was an NYU student and clearly didn’t show up to my apartment because she wanted to get laid. She needed money. Her name was Rose (fake name, for sure) and she was a doll, beautiful and intelligent. Turns out, I’m an NYU alum and we had some of the same professors. It made for interesting pre-coital conversation. I should’ve just given her the money and let her watch TV for an hour. Instead I gave it to her good and hard, military and then from behind. Twice. I needed it at the time, and she was a sweetheart about it, faked the orgasm like a pro. I didn’t even have enough cash on hand to give her a handsome tip. If you’re out there, “Rose,” I apologize and hope it all worked out for you in the end.Submitted by: Big City Al

I’m sorry that you took it all for granted. I’m sorry that I cant forgive you, I’m sorry that in the end for my own good I had to walk away… I’m sorry that we both feel right now but we both deny it and choose to pretend to hate each other.  I’m sorry you and I are not brave enuf to show our true feelings.  We both know what they are deep down. I’m sorry it ended up this way.  I wish we could lock eyes and just know…we do both know though.  We choose to pretend not to care because it is so much easier to admit we hurt.  Your jealously and comments tell me everything. I love you, I always have I just could never tell you that these days.  I’m sorry you are not writing this… I’m sorry wind beneath my wings isn’t about me.  I miss you as much as you miss me. Praying you will think about it…maybe one day say sorry and realize your true feelings.

Submitted by: Anonymous

I’m sorry for hurting you.. i’m sorry for giving up after everything we’d been through, I’m sorry for being crul and finding love with someone else when you were right there, pouring your soul to me. I’m sorry for being blind and that i couldn’t see that what i had before me was good for me. I’m sorry for the pain i caused and the tears i made. I love you still and always will i hope….one day…you can forgive me.

Submitted by: Jessica

im sorry i walked out on our marriage and never got counseling. im sorry i fell in love with someone else. im sorry i lied to you. im sorry i became an addict and stole all of your money. im sorry i lied again and kept taking. im sorry i left you to clean up my mess. i regret i never spent as much effort to find my drug as i should have on us. im sorry i became who i am. i regret that i still miss you, hurt you, and dream about the future we will never have. im so sorry i drug you down with me and youre still the one who has the strength of iron. i love you jim and im sorry.

Submitted by: stinky