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I regret hesitating when I may have had the chance to go after the girl of my dreams. My own insecurity and lack of self-confidence held me back. We became close friends and I think something more. But at the time she did not want to go beyond being friends with benefits. Then she got back together with her boyfriend. But they broke up, and I did nothing. I had the opportunity, but for some reason every time I was near her I lost myself and did not know what to do, did not know how to do what ever I had somehow managed to do before. I regret my cowardice, and that when I failed to act she became close with someone else and I regret that she now spends almost every night with him. I regret knowing that if I had tried it may have made no difference, and that it might have ended up the same way regardless, but because of my own failure I may never know. More than anything else, I regret that deep down I don’t know if I will have the courage to try even if the opportunity comes again. Every time I see her I will have to know this, but I will not say a word because I am afraid that it could mess up our friendship entirely. And I regret that because of all this I feel like I just don’t deserve her in the first place. I regret it, and I do not know how to make it right.

Submitted by: Candyman

i regret not telling you how i feel when i had the chance last year, now you moved halfway across the world and we’re probably never going to see each other ever again.

I’m sorry for blindly creating the disabilities which have come to govern my life. I regret allowing them to grow in my soul unchallenged. I regret allowing them to lace my life with bitterness and despair. I regret the fear and the shame. I regret the hatred. I regret understanding but never acting. I regret the idealism engendered. I regret all of the dreams and the lack of attention paid to their pursuit. I regret my own self-wrought-fantasies. I regret the lack of engagement with how to move from where I am to where I want to be; to stare at the destination and never the road. I regret the opportunities which have passed me by. I regret the chances which have slipped through my fingers. I apologise for never engaging myself with a genuine process of healing. I regret the masks that I wear as a result. I regret the vows that I make and the vows that I break. I regret never being consistent with my endeavour and striving. I regret the person I have become and mourn the one who I know I can still be. I regret always taking my life to the wire and wondering why desperation haunts me still. I regret the world which has allowed me to become this way. I regret never building happiness. I regret turning down love and life and peace and resolution. I regret understanding but never acting.

I was diagnosed with CFS eight years ago. I was housebound and isolated for the first two years and
have been attempting to get my university degree for the past six. I have a loving and beautiful family. I find it really hard to socialise with other people. My anxiety feeds my fatigue and my fatigue feeds my anxiety. I’m now in my final year. I know that I can master myself and overcome the obstacles in my path but I know that I am close to losing faith in myself and allowing fear to derail my studies once again. It feels as if I have become stuck in an eternal moment, forever painful and replayed. It feels like I am living my regrets, that they narrate my every waking hour, some silent, some loud.

I’m twenty seven years old. Thank you for allowing me to post this.

Submitted by: Douglas

I regret not making more friends… I regret being stuck on you all the time…with you lookin at me like everybody else… You never thought I was somebody special but you were to me… Now I am left with nothing but regrets and our fading relationship…where I’m left waiting for a response, a word from you… I regret depending on you so much…and I regret treating you different from everyone else… I don’t regret knowing you but I regret what we have become.

Submitted by: Annette

I am so sorry for what I did to you J.  It was the biggest mistake of my life.  It’s been 2 years now and I don’t know how I can live with myself now.

People now think I am a major scumbag and I tend to agree with them.  I allowed T & M to influence me.  I was a fool and let them manipulate me and to convince me that what I was doing was better for me.  They are despicable.  They treated you like garbage when you thought they were your friends.  But I betrayed you most.  I was your husband.

I can’t see how we could ever fix what I did.  I should move on but I can’t seem to.

Please forgive me J…:-(

Submitted by: R

I regret that I don’t regret anything that happened that day. That I’m okay with settling for less than I deserve. That I actually enjoyed it and that I know that I would do the same thing if given the chance. You disgust me and I wish I didn’t still think about it.

Submitted by: Anonymous

I regret that at the age of 15 when I had no sense of belonging, didn’t really know who I was, I stumbled across a website promoting racial hatred. I never voiced this out loud nor did I believe any of the trash that was spoken. But on the internet, where we can all be who we want to be, I belonged.

To them, I was proud, I hated everybody.

To me and everyone else, I wasn’t proud, I love equality, we’re all human.

I really hate the fact I’ve done this, it sickens me to my stomach. I just needed to get this off my chest. Thank you.

Submit: FML

I regret the day I did it to you
Ever since I lost you
Now I got nothing
I’m lost
I’m sorry

Submitted by: Hello Darker Master

Dear ….. i cant say the name

I am still in love with you no matter what people say, you told me forget the haters but what broke us up was me listening to other people, if i wouldnt have listened to other people around me i would still have you today as my boy friend not just a friend or what ever we are. I still remember our first hug when you first held me and told me you love me then our first kiss, i want that back not to see you flirty with other girls, you flirt with me and say we can’t do this, i miss you and i just want you back, you are my life, i know i mess up, you know everything bout my life that i have never told no one else, the things i went through, that makes it seem like you are mr. right but i guess and the you never know what the future holds

Submitted by: The Who is Hurt

i regret alot, but i mostly regret myself thinking i’m happy. it never lasts long

i sit there thinking, these are my friends, this is fun, they like me

but when i’m home all the questions and emotions just suffocate me

do they really like you?

my kill streak is like 2, theirs are like 40

i can’t believe i acted so stupid and happy, it never lasts long

whats wrong with me? is it too much for me to be happy for a whole day?

or will i always have that voice inside my head saying, you suck.

Submitted by: XXX

I am sorry I cheated on you, and I am sorry I made you fall in love with me. I know we had amazing times and I don’t regret them. I don’t regret you being my first…and I never will. But you hurt me too, and you know how. You pushed me to do things and you even once hit me. How is that suppose to make me feel? I kissed the other guy because I wanted to. Your 20 and I am 18 soon to be 19…You had our life planned out already…You wanted me to be the one, but I am so young still. I cannot decide that now…and I am sorry I didn’t see that sooner. I really miss you being around but I understand that you can’t be here for me because it hurts you, but I can only hope that time will heal what has happened and that you can forgive me someday…and if you don’t find me, I will find you and someday apologize in person and to your face I will say I love you and will always love you, I just couldn’t be your love.

Submitted by: Sorry for what I’ve done

i regret the first time i thought of doing it

i regret the first time i did it

i know it’s changed me since then, even if i haven’t picked up the blade in a long time

i regret telling you, even though you never told a soul.

though its been a few years since we’ve talked,

i can see it in your eyes, that i’m not good enough. that i’ve got problems

i regret doing it, i really do.

it could have saved you and i

Submitted by: ella

Pain – by Me
The only thing that I desire is forbidden to me.
I look at his online profile every now and then.
I spend at least half an hour reading the past messages between us.
I always check to see if he’s still single.
I spend a few seconds looking at my favorite pictures of him.
There is one; he is looking directly at the camera, all smiles.
His hair–that perfect shade between red and brown–is curling slightly from perspiration.
His blue eyes are perfectly happy as they sit inside his faintly freckled face.
The red of his worn football jersey sets off the goodness that is manifested in his joyful smile.
I sigh silently to myself.
And I feel regret crawl its ugly way up my throat and behind my eyes.
I feel it claw its way back down into my stomach where it makes a painful nest.
I shut my laptop and clench my eyes closed and will the tears away.
I break them open in time to see his best friend approach me.
I force myself to smile as he bends down to kiss me in greeting.
I can only bear to be the cause of one person’s pain at a time.
My own for now is sufficient.

Submitted by: M.E.R.

Our love started in high school. I remember the first time I said hey to you in person outside of Myspace, it was in front of the attendance office at school. I remember our first kiss, it was in your car, away from my house. I remember when you took my virginity. It was painful but special. Even though we’re a different color from each other, I see no color, only love. I see a beautiful, pure young man. Who has no intention of hurting me. A man of God who just walked down the steps from Heaven. You have never hurt me the way I hurt you. I did something horribly wrong to you which you did not deserve. I wish my pencil could erase what I have done. You bought me an expensive engagement ring that had meaning accompanying the diamonds. You left to go to another state for some time, trusting me. When you came back, you came home to a painful mess. I did something that I will regret for THE REST OF MY LIFE until the minute I take my last breath. I had cheated on you. I had sex with a guy who I barely knew. I let you down. This surprised you and I am also surprised with myself. I am in shock from the time I wake up to the time I go to sleep everyday. After we broke up, I had sex with one more guy. I REGRET EVEN MEETING THE GUY. Oh, how much I miss those days when it was just us and not other people. I would do ANYTHING to change everything I have done. I am more than sorry for stabbing you in the heart and ruining what we had. I **HATE** the person I see in the mirror. The person in the mirror DOES NOT deserve anything at all… Not even love.

Submitted by: Adelina

I thought I had waited for the best…in fact I had no doubt…when I found out you were having another woman’s baby…in minutes…I was stunned…everyone said…there must have been signs…I looked…and I’m smart…there was nothing…. I am stunned that I have been so betrayed.

Submitted by: One L

To Ryan:

A year ago I broke up with you and yet I still haven’t forgotten you. I wish I could take back everything I did but I know I don’t deserve the chance. I regret giving up so easily. I will never forgive myself for what I did to you and part of me hopes you do the same.

I’m sorry that I stopped talking to you and avoided you but I just couldn’t bear the guilt. I can’t look into your eyes without remembering what we had and how I ruined it. I tried with every fiber in my being to hate you so I could stop loving you and forget you but I failed at that too. When I see how much happier you are now it tears me to pieces but I know you deserve that much.

I’m sorry I wasn’t the one, I’m sorry you weren’t mine. Although we are just in high school I can say I will never meet someone even close in comparison you. Please “Just know that I loved you more than life, follow your heart and do what’s right.”

There was only one thing that bothered me throughout this whole ordeal, something I never understood. Why did you give me a second chance? I never asked for one but I wasted it.

Submitted by: Tallulah

I regret making out and provoking both of you on the dance floor. I regret being a slut for the first time in my life. I regret that I can’t go back now and save my reputation.

Submitted by: depressedgirl

I regret ever living. I regret ruining everything that was right about this family with my own selfishness and pride. I regret taking too long to appreciate everything that I had.

I regret that I realized how blessed I was only in time to lose it all. If I could take it all back I would but now its too late and I’m sorry.

I regret my failures, my disgrace, my continued laziness, idiocy, weakness and unworthiness. I’m sorry.

Submitted by: I Failed

I regret the pain I have caused the women I have known in my life.  I always felt alone, even when I was with someone, and, so, I left.  Like a coward.  And I hurt them.  And now, I am almost 50 and I come home to an empty house, no kids and no partner to share my life.  I look back at my life and I cannot blame anyone but me.  I do not think I will ever be able to say I am sorry enough.  I have tried to die before…that is easy compared to living.  So I do.  Please forgive me.

Submitted: Bill

I regret my hesitation to let people in, to accept that someone might actually want to be with me. I regret giving into that hesitation and I regret how attached I got–only to find that he regretted me. It’s a vicious cycle, regret is. I regret not having the strength to let go of something that isn’t good for me. By that I mean him. And regret. I can’t let go of either. Your first kiss is something you’re always going to look back on and either smile or laugh about. I won’t do either. I’m going to look back on all the events surrounding that moment and remember how the bliss of it all was shattered by his words. And I’m going to look back on it and regret. Regret, regret, regret. From this moment on, I vow to live my life how I did before him and in accordance with this quote: “Don’t regret anything you do because, in the end, it makes you who you are.”

Submitted by: Lindsay

I regret ever befriending her. I regret ever defending her and letting her come between us. I regret letting your friendship go so easily. I regret never attempting to reconcile when we still had the time. I regret not trying to fix things and moving forward like nothing happened between us. Most of all, I regret never apologizing to you for everything that happened. It’s been three years since you died and I regret it every single day.

Submission: toolatetoapologize

I regret sending you those wrong signals. I regret going over that day. I regret not seeing what was coming. Because you did what you did, our friendship was ruined, and we can’t do more than glance and mumble at each other now. I don’t count you as a friends anymore because…how can I trust you after that? I hate you for it. YOU STOLE MY FIRST KISS. I broke down halfway home from your house, and I think that because of that afternoon, I’m afraid of being hit on. Afraid of accepting that I’m attractive, and constantly wary of my bisexual and gay friends. I hate you.

Submitted by: Lolita No Longer

I regret putting up with her for so many years. I hardly knew anyone, was painfully shy, but I was told to look after her, even though she’d been at the school for years and I was new. She emotionally manipulated me, threatened to kill herself if she didnt get her way. Every year teachers, or her parents told me to look after her.

And when I finally, 6 years later, told her what I thought of her, she wouldnt say anything to my face – she went and hid behind her computer and told everyone how I was evil and turning people against her.

I regret not telling her sooner. I regret not telling the teachers I had my own problems to deal with. I regret not punching her in the face the last time I saw her. I regret the 6 years I wasted as her “best friend.”

Submitted by: Sarah

I regret not being a better big sister sooner. Now we’re very close, but it wasn’t the case when we were younger.

I was bad tempered, and aggressive, and my little sister was terrified of me. I regret so much being a monster who scared a little girl, who made her be on guard the whole time around me, because the slightest thing could set me off.

I regret that it took me 16 years to realise what I was doing. I regret that it took me so long to fix it and to have her love me instead of fear me.

Submitted by: Sarah

I regret ever having trusted you. You’re my dad so i thought i could trust you. You just keep lying though. I’m sick of giving you second chances. Until you realize where you want me in your life this relationship can’t work. But i’ll be waiting. I’ll always be waiting because i love you.

Submitted by: TooProudToTellHim