{"id":195,"date":"2006-11-04T16:57:16","date_gmt":"2006-11-04T16:57:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/69.89.31.128\/~iregretn\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/?p=195"},"modified":"2006-11-04T16:57:16","modified_gmt":"2006-11-04T16:57:16","slug":"i-cannot-see-whats-here-all-this-bounty","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/2006\/11\/04\/i-cannot-see-whats-here-all-this-bounty\/","title":{"rendered":"I cannot see what&#8217;s here, all this bounty&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I am healthy. Or mostly. I am loved, have even had great love, the kind that makes everything seem just a backdrop to it. \u00a0I have all my basic needs taken care of &#8212; regular meals, a roof over my head, and more. \u00a0A pretty good job thing &#8212; I\u2019m paid well for hard work. \u00a0I have fine clothes and shoes, too many fine clothes and shoes in fact. \u00a0And yet, most of the time, all I see is deficit. The clutter of my apartment, the inadequacy of my closets. That my friends are not more attentive; my lover not more romantic. \u00a0Or that I am not more perfectly made, more effortlessly attractive. That I am not younger. \u00a0I see what\u2019s missing to such an extent that I cannot see what\u2019s here, all this bounty, within reach, mine to love, to claim, to feel the texture of, to improve on, should that be necessary, with care, with family feeling, or in the way of long-term relationships. \u00a0Most of the time, I just cannot see all these gifts, take them in, cannot say my thanks. I regret that so.<\/p>\n<p>Submitted by: Ivy<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am healthy. Or mostly. I am loved, have even had great love, the kind that makes everything seem just a backdrop to it. \u00a0I have all my basic needs taken care of &#8212; regular meals, a roof over my head, and more. \u00a0A pretty good job thing &#8212; I\u2019m paid well for hard work. [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-195","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yourself"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/195","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=195"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/195\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=195"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=195"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=195"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}