{"id":210,"date":"2007-06-30T22:08:51","date_gmt":"2007-06-30T22:08:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/69.89.31.128\/~iregretn\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/?p=210"},"modified":"2007-06-30T22:08:51","modified_gmt":"2007-06-30T22:08:51","slug":"i-let-myself-be-made-into-such-a-little-little-man","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/2007\/06\/30\/i-let-myself-be-made-into-such-a-little-little-man\/","title":{"rendered":"I let myself be made into such a little, little man&#8230;."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span \/>I spent my entire life trying to look like an adult and act like everyone else, so that I wouldn&#8217;t be picked on, singled out, destroyed by a world that I couldn&#8217;t understand. I said &#8220;I wish to live my life in such and such fashion&#8221; and by golly, I accomplished it. I was out of school, married, with a baby, at 21. No parents to tell ME what to do anymore, those self destructive hypocrites.<\/p>\n<p>Well, now I look back. My God! The pearls of wisdom I couldn&#8217;t receive from those more experienced than me could have saved me a lifetime of hurt and pain.<\/p>\n<p>I made mistakes like NOBODY&#8217;s made mistakes before me.<\/p>\n<p>I feel so trapped. I feel so confused, so isolated.<\/p>\n<p>I regret thinking I knew what was best. I regret trusting my own intuition. I regret every talent and gift that gave me what I have today. I regret every decision that made me the man I am today.\u00a0I regret that I can no longer be warm and nice in any genuine sense, and that every good thing that comes forth from me is an act.<\/p>\n<p>I regret not being more careful with my friends, with the people I let be on the inside of my mind and life. I regret that I didn&#8217;t just push everyone back. I regret that I will always be weird inside and put people in little boxes, and let myself be made into such a little, little man.<br \/>\n<span \/><\/p>\n<p>Submitted by: the City of Angels<br \/>\n<script>  <!-- D([\"ce\"]);  \/\/-->  <\/script><br clear=\"all\" \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I spent my entire life trying to look like an adult and act like everyone else, so that I wouldn&#8217;t be picked on, singled out, destroyed by a world that I couldn&#8217;t understand. I said &#8220;I wish to live my life in such and such fashion&#8221; and by golly, I accomplished it. I was out [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-210","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yourself"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/210","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=210"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/210\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=210"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=210"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=210"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}