{"id":237,"date":"2008-04-18T08:34:19","date_gmt":"2008-04-18T13:34:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/2008\/04\/18\/i-believed-in-for-better-or-worse\/"},"modified":"2008-04-18T08:37:31","modified_gmt":"2008-04-18T13:37:31","slug":"i-believed-in-for-better-or-worse","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/2008\/04\/18\/i-believed-in-for-better-or-worse\/","title":{"rendered":"I believed in for better or worse&#8230;."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Was it a waste of time? Did we learn anything, really? Did we ever love one another? And with enough passion? I thought we did, but now, I don&#8217;t know. Was I not who you thought I was? Did we change? Was it circumstance? Were we never very well matched? Why is it I still see you as my husband, when you are not, not now? As my hero, when you aren&#8217;t and maybe never were, not really. I burdened you. I did not mean to. You resented me. You couldn\u2019t help it. I believed in for better or for worse. It may be too much to ask of someone \u2013 to handle the worst, to want to.<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">What do we do with this sort of stuff? All the questions and how they run on a loop. You&#8217;re not here anymore, with me, within reach. None of your stuff is here. My closest friend. The person who knows me best. Who knows my body, sick and healthy. Now we have to work hard at being strangers. At space and distance.\u00a0 At keeping secrets. At fending off memories, too much intimacy. It is the oddest thing. Cruel. More often than not, love is no gift, no salvation. It&#8217;s a test of your mettle. It\u2019s work. It\u2019s letting go of things, letting go of him over and over.<\/p>\n<p>Submitted by: Divorc\u00e9e<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Was it a waste of time? Did we learn anything, really? Did we ever love one another? And with enough passion? I thought we did, but now, I don&#8217;t know. Was I not who you thought I was? Did we change? Was it circumstance? Were we never very well matched? Why is it I still [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6,9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-237","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-exs","category-husbands-wives"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/237","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=237"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/237\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=237"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=237"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=237"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}