{"id":31,"date":"2006-09-23T17:44:52","date_gmt":"2006-09-23T17:44:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/69.89.31.128\/~iregretn\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/?p=31"},"modified":"2006-09-23T17:44:52","modified_gmt":"2006-09-23T17:44:52","slug":"i-do-not-trust-myself-to-demand-the-best-from-a-lover","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/2006\/09\/23\/i-do-not-trust-myself-to-demand-the-best-from-a-lover\/","title":{"rendered":"I do not trust myself to demand the best from a lover&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m sorry that I do not trust myself enough to demand the best from a lover. It seems I am so willing to settle for less than what I know I deserve and want that I box myself into a corner, expecting things from the wrong kinds of men who have shown their limitations in terms of what they offer and what they comprehend. I&#8217;m sorry that I feel it necessary, for whatever reason, to torture myself in this way. For when such a man and I part ways (and we always do part ways) the pain of a break-up remains as fresh and shaming as if it were a break with someone truly amazing instead of just another false attempt. I&#8217;m sorry that I don&#8217;t love myself enough to know that I am truly enough as I am. If love does not come my way, then maybe that is what life intended. Life is still rich and full. Yet I&#8217;m afraid I&#8217;m blighting my happiness by hankering after the one thing that seems missing while ignoring the richness that still surrounds me. And for that, most of all, I&#8217;m truly sorry.<\/p>\n<p>Submitted by: Jude<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m sorry that I do not trust myself enough to demand the best from a lover. It seems I am so willing to settle for less than what I know I deserve and want that I box myself into a corner, expecting things from the wrong kinds of men who have shown their limitations in [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6,10,13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-31","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-exs","category-lovers","category-yourself"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=31"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=31"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=31"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=31"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}