{"id":590,"date":"2012-10-16T20:31:29","date_gmt":"2012-10-17T01:31:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/2012\/10\/16\/i-cant-imagine-the-pain-and-the-rejection-my-father-must-feel\/"},"modified":"2012-10-16T20:33:02","modified_gmt":"2012-10-17T01:33:02","slug":"i-cant-imagine-the-pain-and-the-rejection-my-father-must-feel","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/2012\/10\/16\/i-cant-imagine-the-pain-and-the-rejection-my-father-must-feel\/","title":{"rendered":"I can&#8217;t imagine the pain and the rejection my father must feel&#8230;."},"content":{"rendered":"<style> <!--  \/* Font Definitions *\/ @font-face \t{font-family:Verdana; \tpanose-1:2 11 6 4 3 5 4 4 2 4; \tmso-font-charset:0; \tmso-generic-font-family:auto; \tmso-font-pitch:variable; \tmso-font-signature:-1593833729 1073750107 16 0 415 0;} @font-face \t{font-family:\"Cambria Math\"; \tpanose-1:2 4 5 3 5 4 6 3 2 4; \tmso-font-charset:0; \tmso-generic-font-family:auto; \tmso-font-pitch:variable; \tmso-font-signature:-536870145 1107305727 0 0 415 0;} @font-face \t{font-family:Cambria; \tpanose-1:2 4 5 3 5 4 6 3 2 4; \tmso-font-charset:0; \tmso-generic-font-family:auto; \tmso-font-pitch:variable; \tmso-font-signature:-536870145 1073743103 0 0 415 0;}  \/* Style Definitions *\/ p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal \t{mso-style-unhide:no; \tmso-style-qformat:yes; \tmso-style-parent:\"\"; \tmargin-top:0in; \tmargin-right:0in; \tmso-margin-bottom-alt:auto; \tmargin-left:0in; \tmso-add-space:auto; \tmso-pagination:widow-orphan; \tfont-size:12.0pt; \tfont-family:Courier; \tmso-fareast-font-family:Cambria; \tmso-bidi-font-family:\"Times New Roman\";} p.MsoNormalCxSpFirst, li.MsoNormalCxSpFirst, div.MsoNormalCxSpFirst \t{mso-style-unhide:no; \tmso-style-qformat:yes; \tmso-style-parent:\"\"; \tmso-style-type:export-only; \tmargin-top:0in; \tmargin-right:0in; \tmso-margin-bottom-alt:auto; \tmargin-left:0in; \tmso-add-space:auto; \tmso-pagination:widow-orphan; \tfont-size:12.0pt; \tfont-family:Courier; \tmso-fareast-font-family:Cambria; \tmso-bidi-font-family:\"Times New Roman\";} p.MsoNormalCxSpMiddle, li.MsoNormalCxSpMiddle, div.MsoNormalCxSpMiddle \t{mso-style-unhide:no; \tmso-style-qformat:yes; \tmso-style-parent:\"\"; \tmso-style-type:export-only; \tmargin-top:0in; \tmargin-right:0in; \tmso-margin-bottom-alt:auto; \tmargin-left:0in; \tmso-add-space:auto; \tmso-pagination:widow-orphan; \tfont-size:12.0pt; \tfont-family:Courier; \tmso-fareast-font-family:Cambria; \tmso-bidi-font-family:\"Times New Roman\";} p.MsoNormalCxSpLast, li.MsoNormalCxSpLast, div.MsoNormalCxSpLast \t{mso-style-unhide:no; \tmso-style-qformat:yes; \tmso-style-parent:\"\"; \tmso-style-type:export-only; \tmargin-top:0in; \tmargin-right:0in; \tmso-margin-bottom-alt:auto; \tmargin-left:0in; \tmso-add-space:auto; \tmso-pagination:widow-orphan; \tfont-size:12.0pt; \tfont-family:Courier; \tmso-fareast-font-family:Cambria; \tmso-bidi-font-family:\"Times New Roman\";} span.il \t{mso-style-name:il; \tmso-style-unhide:no; \tmso-style-parent:\"\";} .MsoChpDefault \t{mso-style-type:export-only; \tmso-default-props:yes; \tfont-size:10.0pt; \tmso-ansi-font-size:10.0pt; \tmso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt; \tfont-family:Courier; \tmso-ascii-font-family:Courier; \tmso-fareast-font-family:Cambria; \tmso-hansi-font-family:Courier;} @page WordSection1 \t{size:8.5in 11.0in; \tmargin:1.0in 1.25in 1.0in 1.25in; \tmso-header-margin:.5in; \tmso-footer-margin:.5in; \tmso-paper-source:0;} div.WordSection1 \t{page:WordSection1;} --><\/style>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Verdana\"><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Verdana\">My biggest <span class=\"il\">regret<\/span> is the disrespect <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> had for my father as <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> was growing up, taking so much for granted and for the pain <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> inflicted upon him with so many cruel and callous actions and words. He and my mother divorced after many years of him being treated like a dog by myself, my brother and my mother also. The divorce was her choice (he had been drinking a lot and <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> can\u2019t blame him). Since my earliest memories my mother was very cold and emotionless towards him. Towards the end of their relationship his drinking had become a daily occurrence and his drunken behavior would often lead to disputes which on more than one occasion when <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> returned home became violent between him and myself. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: Verdana\"><\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormalCxSpFirst\"><span style=\"font-family: Verdana\">By that time <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> had moved out and was serving in the army. Perhaps it was because of the culture <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> was immersed in&#8230;. <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> don\u2019t know&#8230;. at that stage in life <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> was prone to striking out first and had a tendency to solve all grievances with the use of violence. <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> have often felt guilt about that&#8230;. and not just with my father. Worst of all is knowing that <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> caused a lot of emotional pain to many people <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> knew but especially to my father. <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> have not communicated with him for 14 years or so. From what <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> know he has lived a solitary existence in all that time and has not been in good health with the drinking and a stroke which he had not long after the divorce. <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> can\u2019t imagine the pain and the rejection he must feel. <span class=\"il\">I<\/span> have many regrets to choose from but that is up there with the biggest of them.<\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormalCxSpMiddle\"><span style=\"font-family: Verdana\">Submitted by: J<\/span><span style=\"font-family: Verdana\"><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>My biggest regret is the disrespect I had for my father as I was growing up, taking so much for granted and for the pain I inflicted upon him with so many cruel and callous actions and words. He and my mother divorced after many years of him being treated like a dog by myself, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5,13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-590","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-family","category-yourself"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/590","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=590"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/590\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=590"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=590"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=590"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}