I thought I could love away all your sadness, all that anger. I thought if I just stood strong enough, took it all, it would ameliorate matters, that you’d see love can be unconditional; it could bend and you’d figure out how worthwhile you were. I was wrong. Terribly wrong. That was no kind of glue between us. Maybe it emasculated you. I don’t know. But what I do know is that you feel like a poison in me now, one that I can’t quite purge; remembering how you treated me, how I let you treat me, makes me feel that ill, that debilitated at times. I was warned and warned, but I thought I knew better, knew you better, knew life and its possibilities better. Again I was wrong. I couldn’t save you and you resented me for trying. Guess what? Me, too. These days I hate me for it, too. It went on too long and when another man, one of the most beautiful, capable men I’ve ever known, showed up to love me, I was still fighting for you, us. How do I get this poison out? How do I forgive myself for you, for making you up?<\/p>\n
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I thought I could love away all your sadness, all that anger. I thought if I just stood strong enough, took it all, it would ameliorate matters, that you’d see love can be unconditional; it could bend and you’d figure out how worthwhile you were. I was wrong. Terribly wrong. That was no kind of […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-96","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-exs"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/96","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=96"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/96\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=96"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=96"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/iregret.net\/wp-goodies\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=96"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}