June 6, 2011
People might call me a coward or unfair to this great man I call my husband….
I regret having ignored my feelings and let you be a part of my life. I regret to have let you be the first man in my life when in fact you didn’t love me the way I loved you. I regret not having let you go when the wound was inflicted… MOST OF ALL I regret not having been brave enough and sincere enough to myself to give myself the time to heal… I regret jumping into a relationship to someone too good to be hurt… now I’m here pretending that everything is fine when it is not…. People might call me a coward or unfair to this great man I now call my husband, for not letting him know or leaving him, but I can assure that you are not in my position so you shouldn’t judge. I moved to a different country with him and I’m terrified to come back to my country as a divorced woman without relevant work experience (due to my moving), no money, no house (I don’t want to go back to my mom’s place), coming back so lost, and with everyone asking how could I have left the perfect man…the “perfect” life behind….
Submitted by: Yom
At 1:37 am on July 26, 2011, EJN commented:
Yom, don’t be afarid. I can’t believe I’m seen my story repeated. I married someone, only 2 moths after a very hard break up to my very first love. I was 18, move to Germany, I knew right away I made a terrible mistake, but I felt too afraid to hurt my new husband who was so kind, and loving to me. I had NOTHING! Afeter 2 years I got pregnat, and still trying to work thing out somehow. The kind and loving husband turned abusive after a few years, and me… more afraid of leaving him, now for different reasons; It’s been 17 years, I’ve been stuck. GET OUT! Get out with NO SHAME, and no regrets. the job, money and house will come in time and a lot sooner than u think. Run! Be free, and release ur husband, so you both have the chance of living the live u really r meant to live, and no a bitter one.