iRegret.net

I’ve made plenty of mistakes, but only one regret. I regret losing control. I regret letting go of my self, and giving into my curiosity. I regret using substances I had no understanding of. I regret a lot about that night and I regret that I let it affect me in such a way. I regret putting myself in a position to let you take advantage of me. I regret  knowing you and having anything to do with you. I hated you before that night I  lost control. I hate that it has made me ashamed of myself and secretive because I am too ashamed to confide in my mom, my dad…the people that mean the most to me. I hate you and what you did to me. I don’t know if I lost my virginity to you that night, I regret not knowing that. I regret knowing you at all. I hate you and I never say that about anyone and mean it….

Submitted by: Regret

it pains me to know that one day i’ll be looking back, missing you so much, and meanwhile you’ll be looking back, not even being able to remember my name. i love you, but i can’t take the mindgames anymore, sweetheart. i regret ever falling in love with you.

Submitted by: just someone you’ll forget

i dont know where to start or how. i regret trying to sort out everyones problems with each other…and failing. i hurt a lot of people in the process and betrayed their trust. i just thought it would do good and everyone would be friends again. i regret not understanding that its not that simple. i regret not keepin in touch with a friend when she needed me to. i regret not spending more time with my uncle when he was alive. i regret not tellin the boy i first fell in love with about how i felt. and then tellin the second one too much. its amazing how either you say too much or you dont say enough and they still leave. i regret not doin things on time. i regret not being able to live up to everyones expectations. i regret taking people for granted. i just want to go back in time and do things right.

Submitted by: mayura

For db…

I will always regret being scared and letting you go so long ago. But I’ll never regret finding you and “us” again, even if it made me sad for all that wasted time. So please, don’t regret becoming my friend, falling in love with me again, and all the days and nights we talked. I’ve always loved you, wanted to talk to you, and I miss you every day and every night.

I regret that my actions are causing you pain. I know now what happened on that Monday night… what was seen and what was read… and I’m so incredibly sorry you are shouldering the blame alone. I would do ANYTHING to save you all the hurt, explanations, guilt, and sadness. You were right when you said it would end badly. I should have listened; it was selfish of me not to.

Just as you suspected, I never got the first email… if I had I wouldn’t have sent anything, per your request. I only contacted you the way I did to make sure you were alright… I hope you know that and understand.

I know your entire situation is fragile… on all fronts. You’re stuck between a rock and a hard place for now. When that changes, you know where I am. It’s a shame that other parties involved have attempted to make my situation just as fragile. A waste of time really, as it’s already completely broken and no longer fragile. Yes, my status will change, and it will be my heart that’s broken if yours remains the same.

I can’t forget what I know now about us. How it was exactly the same within the first 10 minutes, all these months, and on our one precious day together. It’s the way it all could be and should be. I meant it when I said I’d be with you in a heartbeat. Now and forever.

Submitted by: ek1984

I want to apologize to my daughter for not taking her away from her horrible mother who has taught her to hate. I should have done what I could have done to get you safely away when I had the chance, but I foolishly assumed that negotiating with your mother would lead to a fair and equitable custody arrangement for us both, so that you wouldn’t be deprived of one of your parents.  I failed to take into account your mother’s outstanding ability to lie and cry on cue. Of course the courts believed her, but three years later, when the truth and witnesses finally came out, and I was finally awarded custody, you were two states away, and no one will help a man recover his daughter.

I hope you grow up well, and I hope that one day I can see you again and tell you what you mean to me, and how many nights I’ve sat outside alone wondering what you are doing or thinking. I hope you get to meet your sweet baby brother, Jack, and my wife Heather.

I’m sorry for not doing what people told me to do. I’m sorry for not taking you when I had the chance. I love you, Ashley.

Submitted by: Dad

Jazz: I regret trying to start something that I thought I could finish. I regret thinking that I could understand you by mere blog-reading and inferring. I regret letting my emotions get the better of me. I regret not thinking hard enough before I acted. I regret not being brave enough at times but thinking I could. I regret letting dreams get the better of me. I regret thinking that a lack of communication could be overcome by a nonexistent ‘common bond’. I regret that I invested so much emotionally in you without any true, real understanding of your character.

Most of all, I regret being so angry and so petty when you pushed me away.

I regret that I regret these things: and I will move on.

Submitted by: another suitor

I regret telling you that I would “be ok” if you left me. I don’t even really remember saying it. I certainly didn’t mean it. I did and said a lot of things that I would take back if I could. I was too stupid and inexperienced to pull off a relationship like ours. I wanted it, I just didn’t have the experience to know the do’s and don’ts.

But, those words couldn’t possibly have been more wrong. It’s been over 3 years, almost as long as our relationship, since you went back home and I am most definitely not “ok”. I’ve been through a lot. I’ve changed a lot. But, though others have come and gone, I am still in love with the only person I have ever loved, the only person who ever knew the real me and someone that I will never see again.

I also regret being cold and neutral in response to your post-break-up emails. I was in too much pain and, frankly, not in my right mind for a very long time. You were the only thing that has ever given my life any validation and to go from that to trying to be your “friend” from across the country was way too much to take.

I know you’ll never see this but, if there’s anything left to believe in, maybe you will. If so, contrary to what I’ve lead you to believe, it would be good to hear from you and I’m still, regretfully, in love with you.

Submitted by: Scott R

I regret taking the wrong choice to lie to my friend about my life. I really enjoy her company and friendship, but I believe she will never forgive me. I feel like I destroyed a friendship and we both are hurting. I’m having a hard time letting go! I just do not know how to start the healing process. Regardless of all the pain, I will always love her as a good friend.

Submitted by: Roci

I regret not always being impeccable with my word. I regret manipulating others and trying to get my own way with the words I speak. I vow from this day forward to speak the truth, use my words wisely and use my energy to see all that is good in this world….

Submitted by: Patricia

I’m sorry I didn’t go to spend the holiday weekend with my best friend.  I miss her and hope she knows I love her.

Submitted by: Glenn

I regret falling in love with you after you dumped me. I regret becoming your friend. You are the only person I feel safe talking to now, and I know that is not healthy for me right now. I regret spending my days and nights at the computer hoping you’ll want to talk to me. I regret letting you make me so insecure.

I use most of my energy acting happy for you and everyone else so that things don’t have to change. I don’t know why I work so hard to keep things how they are, because these past four months have been the worst of my life. But I know that things do have to change, because otherwise one day I’ll wake up and you’ll have changed your relationship status on facebook and my heart will break for the second time.

When did I become so fragile that a computer could tear me in two? I regret letting you become so important that I worry about missing a second of conversation with you. And I regret that I know if you asked I would be yours in a heartbeat. I love you. And I need to move on.

Submitted by: db

It’s not that I’m sorry, I’m not.  Regret is a funny word.  I will take a breath and think long and hard about what I’ve done to you.  Okay, maybe I’m sorry.  When I spoke to Regina she told me that you are very hurt.  Okay, maybe I regret telling everyone about what you like to do in bed, I thought it was funny.  We had fun.  We’re not in love, at least I don’t love you.  I hear you think you should leave town.  Maybe you should.  Akron is a tiny place.  Sometimes I don’t like myself very much.  Sometimes I can’t stop saying and doing stupid things.

Submitted by: Lois

i didn’t mean to be so arrogant and mean. i’m not really sure what fueled that side of me. perhaps it was the need to invalidate others to validate myself, and you happened to be targeted. i wish i wasn’t that person. i can remember all the hurtful things i said and wishing the moment they left my lips that i had not said them. there are times when i can’t stop crying bc of the weight of the regret i feel. and it was so long ago. 10 years? i didn’t just hurt you. i hurt so many people. but with you… you are the only one that i miss. and the only one whose hurt continues to haunt me, even if you don’t feel it any more.

Submitted by: hktola

I’m sorry I didn’t tell you sooner, I hoped it would not matter. To me, age is just a number people can judge freely without having been told how to. I just needed someone to love me, someone to care. I have been through so much in my short life, sometimes I feel like I can not bear it. I hope I did not cause you any pain, I just wanted love. For me, it wasn’t about the sex, it was about being together with you, even if it meant lying. I’m much younger than you but I hope my apology means something to you. Just please remember me well.

Submitted by: Kathy

You were sweet in your own fucked-up way, or maybe that’s just the clarity of hindsight. I’m sorry I didn’t see it. I’m sorry I wanted more than you could give. I’m sorry I couldn’t be happy with what you gave me. I see you in the halls laughing, or smiling, and I remember all the horrible things you told me. I’m sorry I couldn’t be your reason. I’m sorry I wasn’t what you were looking for. I regret not being your happiness.

Submitted by: Shim

I miss my job. It’s not coming back.

Submitted by: Eli

I regret ruining my relationship with you.

So much.

I regret being stupid for not realizing that you couldn’t say what you felt because it wasn’t your style to do so.
I regret believing you when you said it had nothing to do with me.

It had everything to do with me.

I regret not realizing you loved me.

And most of all, I regret letting him take your place.
Because now he’s gone and it’s not him I miss…

It’s you.

Come back. I miss you.

Submitted: F/18

I regret ever trusting you in the first place, ever believing that any word that comes out of your mouth could be anything but hate or lies. I don’t regret my good intentions but do regret that it took me ENTIRELY too long to realize you weren’t going to come around. I believe that you’ll eventually have to lay in the bed you’ve made for yourself and you’ll finally have to blame yourself instead of me, your favorite punching bag. I regret that because of you, I’ve become much more cynical and untrusting, that my heart still aches when I hear our friends talk of you. I regret that your hatefulness has made me a person that I have tried so hard not to become… paranoid, apathetic, and beyond hopeless. Someday, I PRAY you’ll realize that YOU cause yourself so much misery, not other people.

Submitted by: MeMyselfandI

You looked me in the eye, and said you would never leave. I told you how much my life would be missing if you died. You promised to me that you would fight as hard as you can. Even though you tried your hardest, in the end, you lost your battle. It was a long and tedious couple of months, and my head is scarred with the ambulance sirens and whirring lights going through our house to rush you to the hospital. I will never forget that day. And though I’ve shown you anger, fear, sorrow, and confusion through my prayers, you’ll always be in my heart. I’m sorry I never got to say goodbye. I love you, Dad.

Submitted by: Jess

I think that was you in front of UNO pizza. You looked just like you did when we last saw each other.  This time you were with someone other than me. Why were you eating at that crap place? I realized then I should have told you I loved you when I had the chance. I didn’t know we would end, that you would walk away just like that, just like you did. You and the guy got into an old Chevy. You always looked at home behind the wheel of a shit box. That was one of the reasons I loved you. I still do.

Submitted by: Romeo

I regret taking you back 12 years ago… and 5 years ago… and still not being able to get rid of you today. I regret that I was nicer to someone who treated me like dirt than I was to myself. I regret that neither of us had the balls to end this completely all those years ago. BUT I don’t wanna regret this in another 13 years so this time it’s gonna have to be for good. Otherwise I’ll never have a chance to seek out the love I truly want and deserve and I never want to regret not having given myself the chance.

Submitted by: darling

After all these years, he comes back to me to tell me he never should have left, that he did not know what he had until it was too late. Then he asks, is it? Too late? Yes, it is. Much too late. And I regret it because once, for a long time once, I would have given my limbs to hear these words from him. I never loved anyone as I did him until I didn’t anymore and can’t again.

Submitted by: A

I am cleaning out my closet today. Forced for the sake of living lighter and cleaner to get rid of things never or rarely worn, of clothes worn too much (which are too worn), of gifts, a blouse or a sweater, that never fit my body or style but were kept from affection, attachment, or gratitude to the gift-giver. It is hard. It is a closet of intentions, mostly good, of plans, even dreams – that I’d wear that red fringed dress somewhere; surely, I’d have an occasion. But no. How can you not feel regret? How can I not register the time passed, the mislaid plans? How can I not see this self I am today and wonder if she has any adventures left, with a closet so bare?

Submitted by: Anonymous

I regret not telling you I loved you.
I regret pushing it.
I regret calling you a jerk.
I regret the fighting.
I regret what a sick, twisted mind I have.
I regret not accepting you.
I regret embarrassing you.
I regret the things I cannot say.
I regret all these regrets.
I’ll never, ever regret you.

Submitted by: AN

I regret breaking her heart. I regret the transformation she led me to. I regret the addictions we shared. I regret her love for me. I regret giving in to her, giving in to us. I regret the cause of our downfall, my mistake. I regret the lies I’ve been living. No more pretending, I won’t give in. Jane, I’m sorry…and that is rare to come by.

Submitted by: JR